Hello all. Fairly new here so please bear with me. This also a graphic account of what happened during my miscarriage. Please dnt read any further if you would find this upsetting.
I had a miscarriage 2 days ago at 11+5 weeks pregnant. Started bleeding v lightly on saturday. By sun arvo i was bleeding more heavily, and by mon arvo i had what felt like early labour contractions. They were very painful, coming every 2 mins and lasting 30 secs at a time. After about 3 hours of that i felt a 'pop' and a gush of blood. I then sat on the loo for over an hour with blood and large clots pouring out of me. We called the out of hours gynae ward as early pregnancy ward closed by this time. They adv go to a&e. I spent 3.5 hrs there having what felt like contractions, bleeding heavily and passing large clots in front of a packed waiting room. It was so distressing and i was devastated to think i might be passing my baby into the toilet in a&e and flushing it away. I briefly passed out 3 times but was given no assistance and my partner had to try to support as best he could.
I was admitted and collapsed on arrival to the ward. I vomited when i came round. I had low BP with all the blood loss. They put me on a drip and a doctor performed a D&C (i think) - basically removed what he could there and then to try and stop the bleeding. I had not been given any painkillers up to this point. The ward staff were lovely and were concerned about this but could not wait to do the D&C.
Anyway. I felt much better after this, and the care on the ward was wonderful. They were sensitive to what was happening and I finally got painkillers and the drips helped my BP. The doc had found my baby during the D&C and they gave me options on what we should do with it now. We chose to let the hospital cremate it which was a relief as i was so scared i lost it in the a&e toilet!
After a sleepless night on the ward a scan showed the miscarriage was complete. I had another examination to remove a final blood clot and was able to go home with some iron tablets and painkillers.
I am now struggling to come to terms with what happened. I think i have come to terms wirh losing my baby. I cried and grieved for it during the first few days of the miscarriage which were quieter. But now i am findinf my thoughts preoccupied with the events at hospital. Particularly the lack of care in a&e. I felt they staff did not acknowledge what i was going through, the pain i was in (no painkillers offered!), the blood loss i was suffering or the emotional distress. I am also shocked still at the blood loss. I gather this is quite normal to pass a lot and for the blood clots to be large. But i had no idea it would be so gruesome and i found it incredibly distressing. I keep replaying it all and wondering if i overeacted and if I should have just stayed at home and if this happens to everybody etc. etc. And how on earth did i have no idea?? I have a friend who had a miscarriage last year and she has been a wonderful support. But i had to apologise for not understanding until now exactly what she went through.
I am sorry to describe it all in detail here, but i feel i needed to share it to help deal with it and to see if others could share their experience. Its all very raw at the moment and im hoping it will get easier.x
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Faybells · 15/07/2015 08:19
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