High risk of late loss and fed up of waiting to get to 24 weeks

[NoRoomForALittleOne]

I know that I should be grateful that I haven't had a MC yet but I'm really struggling to cope with the unknown. I'm 17+4 today. In the past week or so, I've haemorrhaged 3 times and had multiple episodes of heavy bleeding (I bleed out in gushes then it stops). Different doctors have different levels of hope for this baby. They can see that I have a massive subchorionic haemorrhage on the scan that extends over the entire anterior wall of my uterus. Every time that I have bled out, it has re-filled. Normally this sort of haemorrhage is much smaller and once it has bled out, it's fine. The only thing the doctors are saying is that I may need blood transfusions if it carries on and that if I get to 24 weeks, I have a high risk of pre-term delivery. Most of them are quite matter of fact about the risk of MC, like it's something that you just get on with, an everyday occurrence.

24 weeks seems like forever away when I'm having to go to the hospital on an almost daily basis to be checked out. With each day that passes, I can't bear the thought that I could get to 23 weeks and still MC. I'd like to keep busy but I'm supposed to rest and I feel so ill anyway that I can't do much. I think that I might go a bit nuts if things stay so unsettled for weeks...

Has anyone been in a similar situation and have any pearls of wisdom?

[bakingtins]

Sorry to hear what you're going through noroom it must be unbearably tense. I had recurrent first trimester miscarriages and can totally identify with that feeling of events being beyond your control and wishing the weeks away. I really hope the bleeding settles and LO stays put until well past the point of viability.

[NoRoomForALittleOne]

My hospital refuse to give steroids until 24 weeks. I think that the nearest level 3 cot is about an hour and a half drive away at normal speed. Most urgent transfers out from our hospital are done by helicopter. Cumbria may be a beautiful place to live but it has rubbish hospitals and is miles away from everywhere!