In February this year I had a miscarriage. I didn’t know then how common it was but I think I knew deep down that I was going to have one.
In January when I found out I was pregnant I told mine and my partners parents who were SO excited and even though I begged them not to they started preparing for the baby. But I never had any pregnancy symptoms and this worried me.
At 8 weeks I started bleeding…only very little (when I wiped) I also felt something ‘drop’ into the toilet – like an egg sized ball of mucus? and then days later the bleeding got heavier so I went to hospital. They told me it was an empty sac and sent me home. I was devastated. – I was feeling so low all I did was cry. A few days later I was in a lot of pain so I went to the hospital where they booked me in for a D&C for the following week – so I had to live with this for another week!
However I didn't make it to my appointment – 2 days before the operation I felt something ‘drop’ and ran to the toilet where I passed a lot of tissue, I hoped that would be it but I had extreme pain and couldn't get up – I was in agony. My dad phoned 999 but they refused to send an ambulance and told me not to sit on the toilet but to get ‘comfortable’ – this was impossible and in the end I sat on the bathroom floor – literally soaking my P.J bottoms, a bath towel and the floor – 30 mins later an ambulance FINALLY turned up. The paramedic was worried especially since my blood pressure was rock bottom and the bleeding just wouldn't stop. It turns out I had some tissue ‘Stuck’ and because I lost so much blood I spent 4 days in hospital.
I still cry about the loss – even 5 months on – it was the worst experience of my life.
I found out on Sunday I am pregnant again (4 weeks) – and rather than jump for joy – I burst into tears which shocked my partner. I'm terrified. I can’t even think about planning for a baby – surely this is just another empty sac? I feel no symptoms at all (just a missed period) and all I want to do is cry – it’s becoming very stressful.
Has anyone had a bad experience like this and suffered no symptoms in their next pregnancy but had a healthy baby? I’m 26 with no other children.
Sorry for the very long post… I’m so scared
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Carrie27 · 13/08/2014 19:27
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