I don't want to moan

[Laceym1987]

But I just feel so rubbish now after getting the news yesterday that I was miscarrying. I was 5 weeks pregnant last week and I'd been having pain and bleeding last week but the hospital confirmed in blood tests done 48 hours apart that my hcg levels had more than doubled so i thought well this must just be the way my body deals with pregnancy. Over the weekend had horrendous stabbing pains and was still bleeding so after a trip to my GP got sent back again to the EPU, who after bloods again and many hours of waiting confirmed that the hcg levels had now halved and that I was miscarrying. I just don't understand how I could have been going through all the pain and bleeding last week and yet somehow I was still pregnant and then over the weekend I miscarried. I feel like I look like a prick to everyone now, everyone who got so excited about the news on Friday that I was still pregnant who I have now had to turned around and tell that actually since then I've miscarried. It's just so disappointing cause I was so happy when I found out - because I'd spent the previous 7 years with XP trying and then with new P boom I was pregnant pretty much straight away. I didn't even really have time for the news to sink in before I started bleeding and being in pain. The whole experience - especially with the cunt that was the baby's father who completely abandoned me and couldn't even summon up a "I hope your okay" after I told him I'd miscarried - literally he's said nothing at all- had put me right off even wanting to be pregnant again. I don't really know what I'm hoping to achieve by posting on here... Just need to vent

[Hazelbrowneyes]

I have no words of wisdom but I just wanted to give you a hug. It is so unfair you're having to go through this. Take care of yourself xxx

[FishWithABicycle]

It's ok to moan OP, you've had a miserable, heartbreaking experience. Do not give a moments thought to what you "look like" to others having thought there was good news and then found it was bad. If they are nice people they will have every sympathy for you, if they are not then they are gits who don't deserve a moments thought.

Look after yourself, give yourself permission to feel whatever part of the grieving process you are in at any time and take as much time as you need to get through this.

[ots]

So sorry OP, its heartbreaking isnt it.
I had a scan at 6 weeks and all was fine so we told everyone... At 8 weeks had some heavy bleeding so had another scan - baby had died a couple of days after the 6 week scan. I felt so gutted but was glad we had told people as I really needed the support.

Hope you are ok, stick around on here, the ladies here have really helped me xxx

[Laceym1987]

Thanks for the kind words. I am glad in a way that people know what's happened to I don't have to pretend that the most horrible experience of my life - so far - hasn't happened.
I probably shouldn't be but just so surprised at the father just not caring in the slightest because we were friends for a while before things went further and I just can't believe that he hasn't even got one word of sympathy x