Just had enough

[50degreesintheshade]

I'm sorry to have a major whinge but I have just had enough of everything. Feel free to just ignore this post as I just need to write it all down.
Having a d and c was bad enough but I now have an infection from the cannula which has spread from my hand all the way up my arm. I can't use my hand and can no longer drive ( I found roundabouts difficult with one hand) just marvellous.

My toddler is going through a bad patch and spends most days kicking and hitting me. I feel like I am losing the battle with him and everything I do with him is wrong. He spends so much time in timeout it is ridiculous.

My dr has gone on holiday without telling me! Was suppose to have a follow up on Saturday but when I went to make the appointment was given the news. So seeing another dr who I will have to explain everything to again.

My results to see whether I had a molar pregnancy were due back this coming Saturday, but just found out I won't get them for another week :-(

Sorry for the whinge, just had enough of everything.
Hoping tomorrow is a better day, don't think it can get much worse really.

[lissieloo]

I feel for you, I remember far too well how out of control everything feels.

give yourself a break and try to rest, it takes a lot out of you without further complications.

[cosmickitten]

50 I'm sosorry you have this to deal as wellas everything else. I'm not sure what to say but vent away. Will be here to listen.

[Bakingtins]

You're allowed a whinge. Hope today is indeed turning out to be a better day.
You're not losing the battle with your toddler, you just have low reserves of patience and emotional energy at the moment, and toddlers are hard work. Make sure you are getting some "time out" to recharge your batteries.
I hope you get someone sympathetic and helpful for your appointment, and that your tests results, when they come through, are good news.

[squizita]

Whinge away! Its a crap time, a horrible time and you have nothing but sympathy!!!

[RainbowConnections]

Hi 50 hope you had a better day yesterday.
I found it hard being at home with 3 year old child (Or part child/part naughty monkey!) during/after MC. I really wished i could get a sick line from the doctor to take time off! The relentless discipline can be miserable. Probably awful parenting but i used a lot of "carrot" - treats/telly etc - to get DS and i through the worst if it. Try make sure you take time to rest/relax in evenings.

I hope your test results are good. X

[50degreesintheshade]

Yesterday was a hideous day, but at least it is over.
One of my friends gave birth to a baby boy and another posted her scan picture on facebook! neither of them know about the miscarriage and I know I should be happy for them, but I spent most of the afternoon and evening in floods of tears.

I did see my lovely dr who delivered my son and he was so nice to me. I did not even manage to get to his office before breaking down ( I even went in the back way so there was no chance of seeing pregnant women)

I am flying back to the uk on sunday, my results should get emailed to me fingers crossed. So just a 7.5 hour flight with a toddler to get through, hopefully he will just watch cars on loop.

Best get started with the packing as heading home for 8 weeks, today will be a better day :-)

[cosmickitten]

Hope today is easier for you. Someone wiser than me said this time is like the bear hunt. Right now you can't get over it you just get through it. It makes a lot of sense me. Get through it the best you and use all support you can gather.

Hopefully 8 weeks at home will help and on plus side its almost summery right now!

[Bakingtins]

Cosmic I love the bear hunt thing and am stealing it with immediate effect.
50 hope you are having a better day. I'm sure being back in the UK with more support around you will help.

[50degreesintheshade]

Well I made it to England :-) and was feeling a bit better and more positive, then came the email.....
A complete molar pregnancy!!!!!!!
In the past three weeks my life has been turned upside down. I have gone from thinking we were having our second baby to being diagnosed with a molar pregnancy :-(
Will this nightmare ever end?!?!

[Bakingtins]

I'm sorry 50 it's v hard when you keep getting another kick in the teeth. I'm sure now you are back in the UK you'll be well monitored wrt the molar pregnancy. I know there is a support thread for women who've had that diagnosis on this board, they will help to guide you through. Do you have family looking after you now you're back? Can they entertain your DS and let you recuperate a bit? You must feel like you've been through the wringer.

[50degreesintheshade]

The problem is I don't know what to do or where to go :-( do I just make an appointment with acregular dr and they will tell me what I need to do? I am fortunate to have excellent worldwide health insurance, I just wish I knew what I had to do :-(

[squizita]

If you've had a diagnosis of a complete molar, you need these guys www.hmole-chorio.org.uk/contact.html - go see your regular doc or if you have insurance, a gynie. They must refer you. If you're worried or they seem clueless (molar is v rare) just ring Delia on the number on that webpage and she will help you sort out your referral. Don't worry about private/NHS, we all go to the same 2 places: Sheffield in the North, Charing X in the South- specialist molar teams. They are immensely thorough.

The molar pregnancy site //www.molarpregnancy.co.uk is very supportive, with great forums too.

Don't worry ... there is life after molar (she says with all of her 1 WEEK of normal blood results ).