have just started to miscarry :( anyone up?

(85 Posts)
jkb Wed 10-Apr-13 01:52:27

You may have seen my thread on here before.I lost my baby at 19 weeks in November last year....fell pregnant again,was so thrilled ...& e weeks ago the nightmare started...I was suspected of having a rare ectopic c section scar pregnancy & kept in hospital for over a week...aftermri scan etc...they said it wasent,just a pregnancy very close to it...& that they were 99% sure the pregnancy wouldn't survive...was sent away...rescanin 2 weeks.
I still had hope...I really did...
Then today the brown spotting started...& mild constant period cramps....
Then 20 mins ago....pop...blood & clots just fell out...
Had a look thru as I managed to get to the loo where I had a bowlset up in loo...(sorry if tmi) can't see any sac...just lots of clots? Is there more to come? Pain so far is manageable? Will it get worse? I'm 8 weeks +4
Xxxx

Accentuatethepositive Tue 16-Apr-13 01:54:58

Oh dear, that sounds frightening. Can yu call the hospital to check whether you need to go back in? That does sound like heavy bleeding. Really hoping things get better for you soon.

jkb Mon 15-Apr-13 22:35:07

Hi ladies xx

The nightmares r still happening...but thankfully not as vivid or distressing as before.
Bleeding really stemmed too...barely anything...then BANG..pains came out of nowhere this morning & within 10 minutes I was pouring with blood....the worst I have ever bleed....like a tap!? I passed 4 huge pieces of flesh looking stuff & several clots...the last one was size of my palm! (tmi..apologises)...just ad we were contemplating calling 999,finally...45 mins later...bleeding slowed....
Now..bleeding stopped again?
I'm thrilled this came out by itself...as d&c was last thing consultant wanted.but so much blood n bits? How can a womb hold all this? Consultant has warned me there may b some more of these "events"...altho she hopes the worst of it is over? Today's blood was worse than miscarriage.itself...all very frightening & confusing...scared to leave the house

Accentuatethepositive Mon 15-Apr-13 16:49:33

Hope you got some nightmare-free rest last night and that the pain is passing now. Thinking of you.

Accentuatethepositive Sun 14-Apr-13 20:33:40

Oh that's awful. Wishing you sweeter dreams tonight - have the contractions stopped yet?

jkb Sun 14-Apr-13 19:17:21

Thank u for all the company & support last night...I eventually fell back to sleep to b woken by contractions! Arhhhhhhh.
Took my pain releif & went back to sleep & dreams galore..this time I was raped!!! Horrific! This pain releif is shocking...if I don't take it I'm in agony...if I do I'm dreaming! Fedup.com

mirai Sun 14-Apr-13 06:18:14

Poor thing, sending you a big hug. Hope by now you're getting some sleep xxx thanks

Accentuatethepositive Sun 14-Apr-13 05:12:22

Oh no jkb that sounds horrible and scary. Holding your hand, is your DH there to hold it IRL? Otherwise I can only suggest a warm milky drink and a comforting read- I often resort to children's books at stressful times. Hope you're sleeping now.

GiraffesAndButterflies Sun 14-Apr-13 04:48:07

Poor you OP. sad flowers I don't have anything new to suggest but didn't want to read and run. Hope you are ok flowers

Jenijena Sun 14-Apr-13 04:24:30

Handholding here too. Echoing the thoughts that maybe something nice to read or listen to? Can you find a podcast to listen to that will fill your mind of something less bad dream provoking?

lemontruffles Sun 14-Apr-13 03:34:41

Oh, poor you, racing thoughts are no fun especially when you're so tired sad

Maybe try to focus on a couple of very peaceful words, and repeat them to yourself? Maybe words like 'calm' and 'sleep' and 'peace'? Just gently shift your thoughts onto these words before sleep comes? I've used this sort of focusing when I've been very stressed with my mind racing, and it does help.

jkb Sun 14-Apr-13 03:29:29

Thank u for handholding xxx I can't focus,feel like I'm going crazy...tv on...but know I'm gonna fall asleep soon,can't keep eyes open sad & I know more stupid dreams r going to come..I just want a peaceful sleep

lemontruffles Sun 14-Apr-13 03:29:29

Hi jkb, another hand to hold here too. I'm so sorry to read about your loss.

Can you find something gentle to read so that even if you can't sleep much, your mind can be distracted by something pleasant? Your dreams sound very distressing, and you must be sooo tired; grief is exhausting. Gentle kindness really helps.

And it's a very old fashioned thing, but I always find a cup of sweet tea is soothing.

I hope you manage to relax soon; and hope the pains go.

Gumps Sun 14-Apr-13 03:17:33

More hand holding. Poor poor you OP. maybe get up watch some tv or read a book to try and clear your head of the dream?

fuckwittery Sun 14-Apr-13 03:13:55

Hi, offering you a hand to hold here. Dream sounds awful. Tell me a nice or funny story about your children to take your mind off things?

jkb Sun 14-Apr-13 03:10:41

Sorry for double post....it didn't post first time! & seemed to say I wasn't logged in & deleted it!! So wrote again...now it's posted both?! Apologises...u don't want to read my messed upness twice ! Xxx

jkb Sun 14-Apr-13 03:06:48

I'm awake again sad
No pain,that's under control at the moment. But the horrific nightmares have left me really upset & frightened to go back to sleep. I know they r not real,but they have left me with an awful.fear feeling & sadness...they weren't about mypregnancy...they were about someone stole my identity & attacked family thru facebook & all family believed (apart frommy sister,hubby n kids) it was me & turned against me...it went deeper..all my cash,crimes commited...all in my name....so was arrested & removed from my family forever wiv no way to prove I were innocent..they had coveted their tracks so well..my.life was over.....
I now can't stop crying...it's really upset &frightened me to sleep....I know it's caused by morphine & all crap I been given..but it's the worst dreams....real-lifeffear I have felt....& this dream was only one of them...I've had one after the other....I'm exhausted

jkb Sun 14-Apr-13 03:02:06

I am awake again,not in pain as meds working..but from constant nightmares..
I'm too scared to go back to sleep even tho I'm exhausted...they r the most real & upsetting dreams....I am actually crying now...I've never had dreams effect me like this...in the dream my life was over,I had been taken to prison...someone had hacked my identity..gone on fb & threatened & abused everyone...they all believeed it was me & reported me to police.the hackeer had ad also commuted crimes,all in my name...I was taken away for life in prison & only my hubby & sister & kids believed me...but the hacker was so clever they would never b able to free me...my life was over...
The emotions & fear this has set off r awful...I know its not real..I know this is down to morphine & cocktail of meds they put me on...but I can't believe how it's made me feel...I'm exhausted & want to sleep...but can't take anymore sadness & fear in these dreams. I feel I've really physically hit rock bottom ....
I just needed to share this,writing it to distract me....know if I go back asleep these endless nightmares will start again

Accentuatethepositive Sat 13-Apr-13 23:11:51

Oh I'm so sorry to hear you've been through such a rough time. But glad you finally got the medical help you needed. Really hope it's enough and you'll soon be feeling a bit better, physically at least. Look after yourself, or better still get someone else to look after you. Thinking of you still.

toffeelolly Sat 13-Apr-13 20:33:15

Glad you got sorted, just take it easy and rest well, hope you feel better soon. Take care. x

jkb Sat 13-Apr-13 20:21:08

Hello
I have just got home from hospital. The pain got out of control on Friday morning.Despite all the pain releif ,it was like a full on labour & I couldn't cope anymore.
After hours of pain in a & e they finally gave me IV pain releif & admited me. My scan showed I have passed the pregnancy,but show a huge clot stuck behind my cervix & that's why my womb has gone crazy.bloods also showed I have an infection starting & so I'm on antibiotics. I'm now home thankfully.....with really strong pain releif as she felt my womb will start off contracting & trying to expel again! sad
She also gave meisoprostel to try & help it along....as they really don't want to do an ERPC.

So finally,with pain controlled,I'm off to bed soon as I feel the most tired i have ever been.
I couldn't have got thru both my miscarriage night or the other night without.u all xxxxxxxx

Accentuatethepositive Sat 13-Apr-13 05:03:50

Hi OP I just checked in to see if there were any updates and saw you have been suffering lots of pain. I don't know whether what you describe is anything to worry about but hope things have improved a bit and/ or you've got yourself some medical assistance. Hope you're OK.

jkb Fri 12-Apr-13 10:02:33

Awake till 4am...then finally fell asleep....think pains r building again this morning despite pain releif....

Pancakeflipper Fri 12-Apr-13 08:21:51

How was the early hours of the morning for you JKB?

toffeelolly Fri 12-Apr-13 02:17:26

Do give hospital a ring tomorrow if pain is no better , know what you are going through happened twice with me , but mine never came away had to go in and have d&c. I am thinking of you hope the pain goes soon, do take it easy. x

jkb Fri 12-Apr-13 01:17:57

Thank u ladies xxx I don't know what I'd do without u xxxx its so lonely being in pain like this at night xxx god...I'm laying het wishing for gas & air! Lol hate the stuff..but wouldnt say no at the moment

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