Am I mental?

[Pizdets]

Hi,

Sorry if this isn't the right place to post, but I could really do with some advice/experiences.

In August we terminated our little girl at 18 weeks due to a chromosomal problem making her very poorly. I consider myself lucky in that I ovulated about 2.5 weeks after the termination and my period came about 2 weeks after that. Aside from taking an emotional knock the week before my period, I felt ok.

This month I ovulated as usual and on time and my period should be due some time today/tomorrow/Thursday. Over the last few days I've had such strong pregnancy symptoms, but I tested this morning and bfn.

I've been feeling sick in the mornings, had twanging pains in my sides and had a stitch, all of which I've only had when I was pregnant before. On Saturday I even had a small 'gush' of pink cm which hasn't come back since and I thought might be implantation bleeding.

I'm pretty sure from the tests that I'm not pregnant, but why the hell is my body acting like this? I'm worried I'm mental and my mind is causing my body to fool itself. I didn't think I was that desperate to get pregnant again so fast, but obviously with all this going on it's hard to block it all out.

Has anyone else had 'pregnancy' symptoms after a loss? Did it go away? Any ideas on why my body is doing this to me?

Sorry for the rant, it just feels like a form of punishment to feel so bad again.

Piz

[GuppieK]

Sorry to hear of your loss. It must have been so difficult to go through.

I've had three early mcs and haven't ever been more than 8 weeks pregnant. But I thought I'd reply because I've had what I can only think are phantom early pregnancy symptoms too since being pregnant. I swear I've never had that stitch like pain you describe too in my life and it was very distinctive in my first pregnancy and the third but I've also since had in between during months when I've turned out not to be pregnant. The same with getting a metallic taste in my mouth and slight nausea. I've had that a couple of times in months I've not been pregnant. I have no idea if it's something physical going on but I suspect for me it's that I have in the past been so fixated on looking up these early signs and been looking out for them and paying such close attention to my body that I'm getting them in a sort of placebo way or noticing things I would never have noticed.

That doesn't explain your physical implantation type bleed. But I remember a couple of months after my first mc I was absolutely convinced I was pregnant again because of the symptoms being so similar to how they were before. I couldn't believe it when I tested negative. Now I'm ignoring anything that isn't a positive test because I don't really feel like I can read my body so well.

[Pizdets]

Hi Guppie,

Thanks so much for replying and I'm sorry you get this too, it's so frustrating! I suppose I'll just have to 'learn' not to get my hopes up, like you say, for anything other than a positive test. I'd just really like to be able to ignore it and the sickness has been quite debilitating...actually threw up a couple of times but it comes and goes (and only really comes in the morning) so I don't think it can be a bug. Have also looked up ibs and I don't think it's that either (which is good because I'd rather not develop ibs on top of everything else!)

Hope it's not too awful to say that it's a relief to know it's not just me, but also that I hope you get your BFP very soon and it's super sticky!

[Pizdets]

Still no period and still bfn. I don't think I'm pregnant but at least the symptoms have eased off a bit...just a little bit nauseous and the odd twinge. hormones are such a bitch!