Everyone please come and kick me up the arse and tell me to stop being a massive twat!

(35 Posts)
IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 15:08:47

I was doing so well and now I've spent 2 weeks sabotaging it! It was the bloody scales that did it; I weighed myself and the thought process was "oh fab I've lost lots, that means I can go off and eat whatever the fuck I like."

I'm weighing myself in the morning and I know there will be tears. Any advice for how I turn it around? I'm so worried my motivation is all gone after 2 weeks of "one more day and I'll get back on it". Today was going to be the day but I've had a cornetto, a chocolate mini roll, a jammie dodger and a kinder bueno.

I'm practically in tears ffs. I've tried and failed so many times and I told myself this would be the last time. I have 2 young DC and I don't want to have a heart attack or end up with T2 diabetes. They deserve better!

Told you I was a twat.

reggiebean Mon 08-Jul-13 15:10:08

Stop being a massive twat! grin

Im in the same boat. I suppose the question you have to ask is do you ever want to lose the weeight? If the answeris yes then you may as well start now. Daunting but if you start any later youll only have even more to lose. And you mow know you can do it.
Its so hard thougb...

reggiebean Mon 08-Jul-13 15:13:05

Honestly, don't let it get you down. You may have gained back what you've lost already, but at least you're back at your starting weight, rather than not losing anything and just continuously putting it on.

Learn from it, and remember the feeling next time you want to splurge. I'm just as bad, I see the scales, and think I deserve a treat, and just need to keep reminding myself that the bigger treat will being able to wear whatever I want and know I look good!

Just start again tomorrow, and go from there. Every time, you'll do better and better.

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 15:28:25

Thank you reggie and Stealth. I had lost 1.5 stone and I don't think I've put it all back on, so at least I'm still better off than when I started I suppose <clutches at straws>.

It's bloody difficult when you've always been fat and a comfort/emotional eater. I'm 33 now and have been this way since I was a small child.

I'm going to try really hard tomorrow but can't get rid of the niggling feeling that I'm just going to keep cocking up!

Can you make it utterly impossible to binge? Go skmewhere all day with nothing ti eat other than what you take? I find a day or so of that and im back on it

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 15:34:45

I think I need to Stealth. Tomorrow will be dangerous because the DDs are both at school/nursery in the morning so I'll have time on my hands, and if that wasn't bad enough my grocery shop is being delivered so I have to stay in.

The grocery shop is all healthy food but there are biscuits and freddos in the kids' cupboard, not to mention the stack of party bag treats that have accumulated. I guess I could bin the treats but I'd feel bad depriving the DC just because I can't control myself.

reggiebean Mon 08-Jul-13 15:39:21

Ivana Don't beat yourself up about it. You'll get back on it, and feel better for it again.

I know different things work for different people, but I struggled with sticking to my diet for ages. What seemed to motivate me above all others was buying an outrageously expensive pair of jeans that are my target weight. Took off all tags and washed them so there was no returning them, and just hung them at the front of my closet so I could see them at all times. To see a £250 pair of jeans sitting there, untouched, was really, really good motivation for me!

Oh I am so tempted to do that...not sure I haave the nerve...

Ill be checking on you tomorrow. Are yiu going to tell me how well you are doing?

orangina Mon 08-Jul-13 15:46:45

Don't worry about depriving your kids of biscuits etc..... they will be better off without them anyway (not being judgey about kids eating biscuits btw....!). Don't have anything in the house that is going to tempt you to hurl yourself off the wagon. I know if I have chocolate biscuits etc in the house, they SPEAK to me....

(tragic I know)

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 15:54:10

Yes I am stealth smile thank you for being so supportive. I'm going to come back tomorrow and post every morsel that passes my lips in the hope it'll motivate me!

You're right of course orangina it won't hurt the dc to ditch the sugary stuff for a bit. They don't get many sugary treats, hence why it accumulates! They actually have a very healthy diet because I don't want them to grow up fat like me.

orangina Mon 08-Jul-13 16:03:56

I have been known to rummage through the cupboard that contains the kids party bag stuff in an effort to find a little something to satisfy that sweet tooth.....! The less sugar I eat, the less I crave it, so that would be something to work towards as well.... it will get easier!

(Recently emptied the cupboard of all party bag rubbish into the bin, VERY satisfying....!)

Posting on here will help too, it's like having a team of cheer leaders online.....

smile

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 16:10:55

Liking the thought of online cheerleaders smile

The ridiculous thing is that I know if I stick to it the sugar cravings will go, its just a question of making it through to that point!

reggiebean Mon 08-Jul-13 16:15:47

Just clean, clean, clean all day to keep yourself busy! If I sit down and start watching telly or get on the computer, I'll want to eat, so my first couple of days dieting I have to be up, moving around and just doing something where I'm not normally eating (we eat on the sofa, and I snack at my desk, so I can't sit at either of those places at the start of my diet!)

Btw, used to be a cheerleader in high school... "Gooooooooooo IVANA!!" [does highkick] [pulls hamstring and starts crying]

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 17:46:52

Right. I have binned the majority of the party bag crap and biscuits. There are 2 freddos left which I will give to the dc tomorrow.

The only possible temptations are the box of fabs and box of peppa pig ice lollies in the freezer. I can't bin those so will just have to resist!

I'm having salmon fried in chilli oil with salad for dinner and will not let the number on the scales derail me in the morning (no "oh well if I've put that much back on I may as well carry on because I'm fat anyway" for me!)

IvanaCake Mon 08-Jul-13 17:47:33

I'm also going to keep a food diary.

reggiebean Mon 08-Jul-13 18:45:56

Great start Ivana! Best of luck with it, do keep us posted!!!

[waves my pom-poms wildly]

IvanaCake Tue 09-Jul-13 07:19:08

For breakfast I have had an omlette made with 2 eggs and a handful of pancetta cubes, fried in butter, and a cup of decaff tea with a splash of milk. I know the pancetta isnt the best idea but the fridge is bare until later!

Everyone should feel free to ignore this thread of me waffling away...I've decided to use it to record what I eat because I think it'll help me get back on track.

Day one of bootcamp is underway smile

orangina Tue 09-Jul-13 15:07:08

Well done! smile

Brilliant!

busyboysmum Wed 10-Jul-13 22:23:27

Ivana how did today go? I've fallen off since the weekend and need a boot to get back on again. Darent weigh myself.

hazchem Thu 11-Jul-13 06:30:50

Was just dropping in to see how you are doing. There seams to be quite a few of us feeling the twatish remorse of eating carbs.

I've been off them for a few days but am eating loads of nuts cheese and snacking ect. I'm going to re look at the bootcamp rules and possible do uber camp starting tomorrow.

IvanaCake Thu 11-Jul-13 11:24:01

I'm doing good thanks for asking smile today is day 3 and I'm managing to stick to it.

I'm a bit worried about the weekend because dd has chosen McDonalds as her treat following an excellent school report. I need to find the strength to resist a big mac and fries, not to mention the yummy milkshakes!!

I think its the warmer weather that's making us all fuck up...it's proper ice cream and boozy bbq weather!!

IvanaCake Thu 11-Jul-13 11:24:47

Ps what's uber camp?

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