(oh and doesn't tooth paste work? innocent look, never had it tbh.)

oh god juicy.

i'm thinking you still have a thing for Irish but really you want beachbum. but due to his withdrawing you're not gonna go there again till he makes more of a move. fair one.

off out shopping today with mum/aunty.

XH has swopped weekends mums having the boy tonight might go out not sure yet.

Gym boy has apologised, said and I quote 'I'm a nob, I'm so sorry' my response - yes you are. yet to decide if I will see him again. highly doubtful even thou the email has thrown up more questions nothing will change I don't think who knows.

oh... and coventry bloke is up this wkd... shall have to meet him to return his clothes at some point without attacking him.

and who knows how to hide bite marks? still have one from last sat... and foundation isn't covering.. not just love bite... proper teeth marks type, bruises that yellow/green way almost gone but still visible.

waiting on immac.. i have 7 mins to update

so whats everyone up to date wise this wkd.

i've none.

will be going to irish's when he finishes work on sat night. kipping for couple of hrs in spare room then leaving early hrs of morning to be at the metro centre for opening time. then off to our swish hotel... as friends ... no ideas you lot. my friends just keep laughing everytime i say "friends".. lol. perhaps they know me too well.

guy from last sat has text couple of times. very upfront and honest. he's just out a long relationship. willing to date. but looking for no relationship of any sort???? no idea what he wants then?? i date to accompany to dinner/cinema?? who knows. i give up guessing what these men want.

beachbum still asks for weekly requests to dinner/lunch. have declined all so far as its just too difficult going over the old ground every meeting and not being allowed to so much as touch. not initiating any contact. this will either dwindle to nothing. or he will get his arse in gear. responding with texts in small phrases/single words as otherwise texts end up drawn out in a serious discussion via text which i detest. have deleted him from msn and limited his facebook access too.

em... what else... nothing. that is enough .

so 3 men taking up headspace. none supplying sex. 3 wanting dinner/dates.... only 1 getting my time for them.

who can work out what that means.

tell me as my head is numb and confused

shame he has brought yet another child into the world that he is unable to support or be properly involved with isnt it?

and unlike here there isnt a welfare state to fall back on when feckless fathers dont uphold their responsibilities

lol. don't worry about it.

how nice of him thou to consult you!

ugh sorry i am repeating myself (head full of a million things to do before tomorrow)

nothing surprises me, last time he thought the baby was his he asked me opinions on what to call her

this one at least looks more like him

well that was nice of him lou!!

have fun over the w.e.

oh btw exh is now a father again, baby was born yesterday in thailand

at least he looks more like him this time round (yes he sent me pics)