And I know which side I stand on.
I have been split from my ex since Feb and Im still in love with him. He is a total arse and there is no question of us getting back together because I know he will never change but no matter how hard I try I cant get over him.
Ds is the image of his dad although he doesnt agree and dd has many of his features like his long eye lashes. Makes me miss exp alot when one of the children makes one of his expressions. They both have his naughty smile! I find it so hard when one of the children does something new because he misses out on most of it and I want him to share the special moments.
I never ever in my wildest dreams thought things would end up this way. I always invisaged a normal life. Meeting someone, getting married, buying a nice house together and then having kids. Instead they were unplanned (but the best thing that ever happened to me) and Im on my own with them spending my time and energy fighting with their dad over contact and money. Its not supposed to be like this. Im 20....but instead of going out shopping or clubbing with my mates Im at home being a mummy. I dont resent it, I just sometimes feel like I dont have an identity anymore, Im just mummy. Although the 3 of us are a family it so clear something is missing and I worry that its only a matter of time before their dad loses intrest. I dont want my kids grwoing up with out a dad like I did.
I dont even know what the point of this thread was..... I spose i just need to vent a bit of anger. Get some things out of my system. I have so much on my plate right now but all my time is taken up with looking after the kids and there are important things that are getting neglected. I cant keep up with everything.
Sorry like I said this thread is pointless...... just sorta needed to say it.
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spookycharlotte121 · 13/11/2008 00:48
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