I'm feeling really low at the moment, I have 2 DCs under 6, am on my own with them. I had some conflict with my DC's teacher last week which really upset me, as I felt my parenting was being criticized which has never happened before. Looking back, I think the teacher could have handled the situation much better and I am surprised at how emotionally I reacted, floods of tears in public etc. I work nearly full-time (some weeks more than full-time) and then it's the daily grind of homework, baths, dinner etc. We live in a rural area and I'm finding it just about impossible to make new friends, not to be snobby but most people round here are from farming communities whereas I have a postgraduate degree, I have tried a mum-and-toddler group with my youngest and, although met a couple of nice grannies, no-one I could really imagine forging a friendship with. To make matters worse, I was abused as a child, went thru years of counselling and psychiatric help but my mother died earlier this year which has brought a lot of it back and made me feel just so disappointed with life. I hate even saying this because I am an optimist usually and see the good in all things but my mother died without any chance of reconciliation, in pain, having had a sad life herself. Also around this time it became increasingly difficult for me to contact my grandfather who was the only relative I had kept a bond with, due to interference from the abuser. I didn't fight to stay in touch with granddad as I didn't want any kind of contact with the abuser. Plus I think I may be pregnant, I would love to have another child, but at the moment I feel a dark cloud over me at all times, I feel too distracted to play properly with the children a lot of the time although I do make a big effort and I just can't figure out how things will get better. I consider moving house, or changing jobs (my job is solitary, IT-based, which means no adult companionship thru that)...Going back on anti-depressants but I've found over the years they don't really solve anything, and have finished counselling though still have a diagnosis of disability on mental health grounds resulting from the severity of the abuse. Weeks go by without seeing a friend, I don't have a single friend I feel I can call regularly for chats, and I don't seem able to make new friends easily. It's as much as I can do to keep on top of keeping the house tidy in my free time. Help!
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