My BF ended our relationship at the weekend and I am overwhelmingly sad, so much so that I contemplated ending it all on Saturday
My mum passed away a few years ago, shortly after my dad, and she would have been the one I turned to. My sister and I have never been particularly close, and have grown further apart since our parents' deaths. My ExH hasn't spoken to me in a civil manner since he moved in with his GF. He now collects DD in silence (that's when he bothers to see her). My work situation means I have no work colleagues to turn to. Friends-wise, two of my closest friends both moved away over the past couple of years and are now four-hour car journeys away (in opposite directions!). The handful of local friends I have left are all partnered-up (most with kids too) and don't feel close enough to have their shoulders cried on.
I feel utterly alone and am trying desperately not to feel sorry for myself. I get one Saturday night off every two weeks (if I'm lucky) but that's when my friends have plans with their partners and/or families. I'm unable to go out during the week (or whenever I have DD) as money is too tight to have a babysitter on a regular basis (how I'd love to get back to an exercise class!). Sadly, ExH won't entertain looking after DD for even an hour one weekday evening, despite living round the corner.
Saturday night scared me because I really couldn't see a reason for carrying on (DD was with her dad). I'm desperately trying to hold it together for DD but it's exhausting putting on this act when I feel so lonely. When she goes to bed, I just cry and cry.
How do I get myself out of this hole?
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Prforone · 07/04/2015 23:55
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