Hi I'm feeling so fed up at the moment trying to decide what I want to do.
I have 2 children aged 9 and 6. Being a mum has been the best years of my life.
I struggled with both my pregnancies with bad sickness. Second pregnancy sickness lasted 7 months. It was awful.
My second baby was born with a few problems and had several operations in the first year. She literally never slept just cat naps here and there so myself and hubby were exhausted all the time. We said no more children ever. Lol and to be honest I never thought of any more. We just enjoyed what we had.
When my second child started school 2 years ago I started thinking about another baby, thinking turned in to obsessing about it everyday!
2 years on and I'm none the wiser and literally driving myself insane with the decision.
So here's whats making it so hard to decide.
We are both scared to death of a repeat of my dd. years of no sleep and operations, hospital stays.
We are both worried about my sickness in pregnancy and how I will cope looking after my children while being so ill.
We have a 3 bed house and a boy 9 and girl 6, someone will have to share and that's a big age gap to have to share.
Money will be tight, we are comfortable now another baby will make things a bit harder.
I worry if my current 2 children would feel left out.
My husband is very worrid about it all the same as I am and one minute he says yes let's have one then the next day he says no why rock the boat, life is perfect as it is.
Bottom line is he's happy how we are but if I 100% want one then we can have one.
Despite all the above I can't shake the feeling of wanting another baby.
I think about it all day everyday it's driving me crazy. The thought of not having another baby brings me to tears but the thought of having one scares me incase I ruin what we have.
I know no one can decide for me but I really need someone to talk to I'm feeling so fed up that I can't just decide
One day I think just do it and then then next I think no don't.
Whys it such a hard decision?
The thought of never having a baby to cuddle again never sitting playing with a toddler and watching them grow breaks my heart. But my head says no.
Do I follow my heart or my head ?
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Having another child or stopping now. Feeling fed up
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Kayleighann · 21/01/2016 09:36
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