Game over :-(

[MaddieH]

I posted earlier in the week as I was worried about spotting and thought it was game over. I took a test early this morning and the negative was confirmed :-( I'm finding this hard to process. This is our first proper attempt (one got cancelled earlier in stims as my drug dosage was very low and I wasn't responding well) with ICSI and we got 5 eggs, 3 fertilised and all three went to blastocyst. One blastocyst was top quality so we transferred that and were told we had a 70% chance of success. The other two turned out not to be freezable by day 6 so we'll have to start all over again.

I know 70% isn't a guarantee, but I was also told that my uterus was 'a perfect environment for a embryo to grow' so it seemed really hopeful. Now I'm freaking out that this is never going to happen for us. I'm starting to wonder whether the progesterone suppositories were the problem as I was spotting a lot for the past five days.

Any words of wisdom or hope?

Thanks all xx

[RobberBride]

Not sure I can give wisdom, but I didn't want to read and run. I recently had a similar situation on my first injectables cycle - 'textbook' lining, three beautiful decent size follies, a trigger shot, plenty of sex at the right time - and it didn't work. I found it much harder than all of the other bfns in the last 20 months, I think because it looked so hopeful I allowed myself to think it might actually happen. Please be kind to yourself, cry, rant, eat crap, whatever you need. In a few days you'll probably start to feel better and can talk to your doctor about what might be next.

[tinkitonki]

Hi. I'm so sorry that your IVF didn't work, I've been there with multiple failed cycles with seemingly perfect embryos and womb environment so I know how hard it it's to take.
I wanted to post as what you are saying about the progesterone was an issue I had, I didn't make it to test day on 2 cycles due to spotting/bleeding. The second time it happened they tested my progesterone levels and they were shockingly low, I simply don't absorb the pessaries so they switched me to injectabled for my next go and it was a success. Worth bringing up at your review appointment I would say.
Good luck with however you proceed next.