2nd failed IUI :(

[Harry81]

I really wish I could post good news but it's not to be. Had sore boobs & spots & grumbling pains plus all other subtle indicators that af was on its way so took first response preg test today - it was 3 days early but unfortunately 98% accurate. My DH is trying to hide it but he is so disappointed he went in the shed to 'fix bike' for ages. Feel like the past 5yrs of neg test results is chipping away at his 'not yr fault, we'll try again' routine!!! Will start 3rd IUI when I get period but atm very demoviated :( My best friend is preggers & due nxt month and as mean as this sounds finding it hard to be around her. Does anyone ever feel that all their friends & work colleagues skip off & get pregnant naturally making you feel a bit defective?? Soz guess bit of a rant but feel so upset & angry at the same time!!!! I had 3 mature eggs so did respond better this time but I have one blocked tube and was advised low success rate of 5-10% but still you can't help but hope each time. IVF is an option but with only one free go on NHS wanted to give IUI a go.....Feel like a glass of wine might treat myself lol