Hi
I'm in my final year of a degree (BA), Single mum, one DD, 6. I have PTSD, and my Grand father died in the past month. I was diagnosed with PTSD in May, so some of my results there only just scraped a 2.1 (60 and 64). I have lots of high 2.1s and incredibly high 1sts (some in the 80s) from my second year, so I basically wanted to drop the 60 mark from my average. Which we are allowed to do, they take the best 15 forward. The reason for this was because I've been offered post-grad that needs a 2.1 or 1st, but a 1st would get me funding.
Only, this semester we had a double module for which one element got a 2.2 of 57 (I worked so hard as well- but it was performance) and a high 1st of 78, so overall, 68. And we get results back on Monday for an assessment and essay that I did two weeks after my Grandfather died. I just absolutely know that I'm looking at a 2.2 at best, and now there is no way that I can turn my degree around and get the grade I need.
I have three modules left, including a dissertation (I've written half, but its terrible, had lots of tutor feedback. She's lovely but I think she will only coach the students who have done well this semester, and not help me at all now.) She will probably just see it as a complete waste of her effort to help some-one who will only scrape a 2.1, and would rather put it in to those who already have 1sts.
I am devastated. I have worked against my PTSD and awful past circumstances, the loss of my Grandparents 18 months apart during my 2nd and 3rd years,finances, childcare, lack of confidence, everything. To not even deserve a place on my course now is heart-breaking. And to listen to other students saying how well they have done is gutting, even though I'm really proud of them and so, so pleased for them, I can't help but think I'm just the utterly stupid one, held back by depression and my awful life circumstances.
I don't want to pick up my results on Monday. I don't want to write my dissertation anymore. It all just seems incredibly pointless and for nothing now.
I know that sounds silly, but that's how I feel.
Any lecturers/ students who have felt the same and think it can be turned around?
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Final year.... think I've screwed it up
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Katkins1 · 01/02/2014 17:47
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