I went back to work 1 day a week in between the two dc and didn't find it this hard last time.
I work Fridays which is dh's day off so don't have child are costs which works well for us. I don't get paid enough to put them both in nursery.
Basically I feel like I'm struggling to cram everything I need to do into one day and due to the nature of the job it's impossible for me to bring any of it home to do in the evenings. I find it very difficult to switch from sahm-mode to work-mode and I know I'm not doing a very good job. My immediate line-manager has very high standards, which I don't have a problem with, but she doesnt have kids and I dont think she understands what I'm going through. I'm still bfeeding dd2 so Dh gives me a lift to work and I feed dd in the car immediately before and after work (she doesn't take a bottle). She is also waking up 3x a night so I am constantly knackered.
Can anyone else relate to all this? If not, please will someone tell me to stop winging and get a grip!
I can sympathise if that helps although we don't have exactly the same situation.
I think working one day a week is very tricky. I have two children and each time I have been on maternity leave, I have found the switch between being mum at home to working person quite difficult. So I can imagine I'd find that quite difficult too.
Plus I sympathise because I have had two bottle refusers. DS1 went to full time nursery at 9mo as a total bottle refuser and simply ate solids and waited for me to come home for breastfeeds. DS2 is just starting full time nursery now as a bottle refuser so I spend a lot of time performing desperate breastfeeds parked in cars and worrying about both children incessantly. I think I am good at my job but it is pretty incompatible with having kids (lots of hours, lots of evening work) and that gets me down.
Sorry, no good advice but lots of sympathy for you feeling a bit rubbish about things.