Talking to a doctor about "mind" issues

[Thaigal]

I have long suspected that all is not right "upstairs" with me, I'm not stupid or anything but I know I act oddly sometimes, to me it's just funny, others find it wierd and childish and I can see why but I still find it funny. I've read up on it and some of my behaviour when I look back at it seems to indicate bi-polar?

I worry over very silly things, I become all wound up and stressed about simple things like getting a different bus for the first time or going somewhere where I don't know the route 100%. I tend to avoid social situations as best as I can, I only have 1 friend and I often make excuses not to see her.

I constantly feel annoyed and angry, often about petty things that happened years ago such as me getting the blame for breaking something as a child when it wasn't me, I feel angry that I was picked on at school and I blame my mum for not dressing me in the right clothes, now I have an obsession with my own kids clothes that they always have to be "the best", I'm not a snob but I worry that if I dont buy their clothes from certain places they will be bullied and end up as "losers" when they're adults (reading it back it sounds ridiculous I know).

I don't sleep very well, when I do go to bed (usually around 1am) I daydream myself to sleep re-living a stupid dream that I had as a teenager...

I also have an obsession with violence, domestic violence inparticular, I have no idea why and I know how awful that is, especially if anyone reads this that has suffered (I am sorry ) I KNOW this is not normal.

So, I thought it was about time I got myself sorted, or at least looked into. I have an idea that this could all be down to abuse I suffered as a child but I don't know, its the only thing I can think of that has maybe made me go a bit loopy.

So, what exactly do you say to a doctor to the effect of "please can I see a shrink? I'm going mad... thanks "

Has anyone done this? a new doctor has started at the surgery, a female who is a very "lovey grandma" type (but younger!) and I would feel easier talking to her than the other male doctors.

Please help, also if you have any idea of the other symptoms I'd love to hear it

[lemonice]

have you had any treatment previously or is it a new thing.. try reading dr jamieson's book, it's very good

[Thaigal]

Never had any treatment, never even spoken to anyone about it, my ex used to think I had something wrong with me occasionally but I just used to find it funny...now I realise maybe it actually isnt all that funny and it needs sorting out if I'm ever going to get on.

I'm not a troll before anyone says it, despite how daft this thread may sound.

[twinsetandpearls]

I think you are playing with my mind as I have replied to this elsewhere

[lemonice]

that's what i though twinset and pearls.. a tad confusing but then it is late