Just before xmas I noticed a couple of bumps on my bits. Initially I thought shaving rash so went to local GP who agreed and said it didn't look anything sinister. Anywho a couple of days past and they turned into sores which were painful to touch so I went embarrassingly to the local sexual health centre and had some swabs taken.
The doc rung me the Friday before xmas and said I had tested positive to HSV1 genitally. I was gutted. The doc said I could have had it for years and it's just laid dormant in my system and something like stress caused the outbreak. I have to admit my fiancé and I were going through a rough patch so that may have contributed but we were trying to get back on track so this really threw me.
I have cried pretty much everyday since. The day after I found out I plucked up the courage to tell my fiancé. His response was 'oh for f* sake!' and he asked me to leave!! I have had to move out and have been alone over xmas and new year as he hasn't wanted to see me and I am too ashamed to tell anyone else. He says I have cheated on him and he will never want to be near me in case he catches it! He is a little naive to be honest, but I know I have to respect his choice. I am so down about it which in turn does not do any good because I don't want another outbreak. BTW I have not been unfaithful, that is not my style at all and it really hurts that he thinks I would be unfaithful to him.
I am in touch with my fiancé but he keeps saying he will get in touch once he has read more about it?! My feeling is that if he truly loved me he would have read up on it by now. He hasn't contacted me to see how I'm feeling and I'm a bit gutted really. I have some leaflets the doc gave me which I want to give him but he says he doesn't want to see me until he's read up on it.
I'm also concerned that if he doesn't take me back I will never find anyone who wants to have babies with me ever again and will end up living on my own with 79 cats!
Sorry to go on but I am at my wits end and cannot keep googling herpes because it's driving me slightly insane.
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Diagnosed with HSV1 and fiancé ditches me at xmas, devastated
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cupcakedream · 02/01/2014 21:51
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