I am still not sure where I stand in the alcoholic scheme of things but I have done a lot of thinking recently and would appreciate your advice and comments and experiences..
Looking back over my adult life I have done some spectacularly dim things under the influence of drink. I just love the stuff - am pretty upbeat in general and that first glass of wine tips me into that yahoo giddy mode that is so fabulously pleasant. Right now I am craving it.
I would go so far as to say the first MOUTHFUL of wine does that for me.Is that the norm?
What is it about drinking that makes you think "ah yes, that lovely feeling, this is the REAL me and I see everything with such clarity and insight " . Of course this is bollocks and if you remember the next day some of your thoughts (worse still, actions) you feel mortified.
I seldom drink midweek but if I do open a bottle of wine I have to finish it. Occasionally I open one at lunchtime and it is drunk before the kids get out of school.
At a party I seem to have no control when I start. I LOVE it. I don't love the hangovers and the sense of remorse the next day.
However if a group of us are going out I will ALWAYS volunteer to be the driver and am perfectly happy not to drink at all on those occasions, as I consider it dangerous for me to be out in public and as drunk as I get. I also prefer to look after my boozy friends.
I realised after an incident last year that I was very lucky to have got away with my social drinking binges all these years without alienating my friends.Of course many of my friends are big drinkers too. (My husband might argue I did not get away with it)
At that point I decided to stop binge drinking.
You will all know this is not the same thing as saying " since then I have stopped binge drinking" !
I have had three BIG lapses this year at which times I behaved very badly which has convinced me I have some level of problem. My evil twin came out to play and got away with it AGAIN
is there such a thing as levels of problems with alcohol? I know some people say they can never drink again AT ALL.
I feel a sense of loss if that is the case and I need to give up wine forever. Does that make sense?
Binge drinking for me coincides with stuffing my face with food so that will have to go too.
I am an intelligent and capable mother in her 40s with a lovely husband, kids, home, job, and extended family . Why do I constantly revert to my alterego as a lazy boozy greedy slug?
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I am a lazy boozy greedy slug but am I an alcoholic?
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