Hi
I'm not really sure why I'm posting on here. I'm not a mum or a step mum, but I do read mumsnet and know it's full of very kind wise ladies and I hope maybe somebody has some wisdom and kindness for me. I really can't talk to my mum about this at the moment.
I'm having a really hard time with obsessive thoughts, I have a strong suspicion I have OCD, but am scared to go to the doctor because I am very afraid they will think I am attention seeking and making it up. I've had a lot of difficulty with my mental health in the past but have been depression free for almost 2 years after really struggling for 8 years. Which is great, right? I know I have to go, I just have to build up a bit of courage and get the appointment. So I need something I can do to help me manage them.
But the obsessive thoughts are getting worse, (I don't want to write about them too much in my OP as they might be triggering for people who self injure) and are making my anxiety very very bad. I was pretty convinced tonight that my boyfriend hated me because he wasn't in when I called and that he was avoiding me because I am such hard work and mental. This isn't the case at all, (he is very supportive but I worry that it will be too much for him to handle) I know I am being irrational but I'm finding it hard to stop myself.
I'm also showing some bad old habits like financial recklessness and I'm pretty frightened that my obsessive thoughts (they're about sharp things and cutting) will get so out of hand I'll actually act on them,
Tips? Advice? Anything to help make my brain be quiet and rational for a little bit. It's bloody exhausting living like this.
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Mental health
Intrusive obsessive thoughts- short term
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lepetitesinge · 28/04/2010 21:31
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