xDH moved out finally a week ago (had been out staying with friends for last couple of months but now has flat and started moving his stuff) - I found it affected me much more than I expected. Was very upset. Thankfully had my sister visiting who helped me get through the w/e. Sis also persaded me to take few days off work to try to sort out house, which I did. I am on 40mg citalopram for lasdt two years (depression due in large part to problems in our relationship I think - am indergoiing weekly psychotherapy at moment) - went to GP on Friday to review prescription - she kept it at 40. I spoke to her about the days I'd taken off and that I was worried I might not be able to face work next week. She said if not to come straight back and she'd sign me off. Over the w/e I thought I'd be ok but I was at a meditation retreat today and got talking to a guy who had also been an alcoholic (like my ex) but who had knocked it on teh head when it looked like it was going to ruin his marriage. This really REALLY pset me. Obviosly I was very pleased for this guy and his partner but it made me so mad so angry at my ex. These are feelings I never really let myself express as a)I don't want the kids to see them, things have been bad enough and I am determined to keep things amicable and b) ex will jst belittle me, he still acts as though it is all my fault and my decision to split up and has been bending my ear about how hard it is having teh kids in his little one bed flat ...anyway, long story short, I've been feeling really shaken up all day. My psychotherapist says I am emotionally detached from everything and I feel this is the firs ttime I've broken through that (for good or bad I know not!) I'm inclined now to go to GP and get signed off for a couple of weeks and just try to work with these emotions that seem to be finally coming up. Am worried if I go into work and pretend everything is ok it'll just all get buried again. I know I'd be able to do teh putting a brave face on but you know what I just don';t want to. BUT U feel gilty about work. It's a small company and we are very busy. I never took time off last time when I get really depressed - I took holiday to try to deal with it. Part of me thinks I need to do it part of me is wracked with (lapsed catholic) guilt. help. what to do?
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