Oh God. Don't know where to start and have also name changed by the way.
I am really struggling to cope. I am feel so unbelieveably low at the moment - I'm worried about money, I'm unable to function at work, I am stroppy. I just don't know what to do.
I have always had moments of feeling down like this but at the moment it is particularly bad. There was a time at the later part of 2009 when I was struggling at work. Someone was basically bullying me. My self confidence took a real knock and hasn't recovered despite the problem at work not really being there anymore. It has got to the point where for the past two weeks I have been avoiding making phone calls at work. For some reason the very thought of it makes me feel sick. I don't know why - it is totally irrational and these calls I am scared of are a very vital part of my job so I just don't know what to do. The past two weekends I have spent the whle time worried about going back to work and making these calls. I have been struggling to get to sleep - quite often not sleeping until 1/2am and I keep getting awful stomach pains which I'm starting to think is linked to stress or something.
To top it off my depo injection was due this week. I had it and had a huge falling out with DP afterwards. I'm sure that it is because the depo makes me more emotional - I remember we had a huge argument on the day I had it done last time. It seems to make me more emotional/argumentative which ends in an argument. I'm doubtful I will have it again as I have been feeling so awful the past two days that I'm sure it must be related. But then that means I probably need to go back on the pill which I have avoided due to it not really working for me previously.
Anyway, I am ranting now. Don't really know what to do/how I feel - my head just feels all over the place. It feels kind of jittery, like it is rushing from thought to thought in a panicky kind of way. Oh God, I must sound so crazy. I just need to share this as I don't know what to do and could really do with some sort of support.
Thank you and sorry.
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Mental health
Struggling - have no idea what to do
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drowning · 14/02/2010 01:08
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