I am posting on here as I don't feel I can talk to anyone ... my relationship with dp is at breaking point, we moved away from where we were living 2 yrs ago, and since then things have gone from bad to worse, he couldnt get work and what he could get was really sh*t, my oldest son has left to go and stay with his grandparents indefinitely and the youngest one has AS and HUGE problems at school. the whole process of schools and statements, him not working in his profession has caused him to leave and come back, and now he has said he wishes we had never come here at all. it was all for me and my degree which i havent been able to continue you with because of ds2 and ds1 going off the rails (smoking weed etc). last night he gave me the hard truth, he gave up everything for me, and it isnt working, would i do the same for him? if i move back, ds2's statement will have to start again, i have nothing and noone there to return to, ds1 will have to move schools in the last year of his gcse's (if he comes back that is), but life without him is unbearable.
We have been together for 5 years, he is the love of my life, after my husband killed himself in 97 I never thought I could find love again. He has left to day, and I am left, not being able to contact him as he's not answering his phone, feeling sick, confused, and extremely desperate, I had a breakdown before xmas when we had split up and I havent felt this bad since then. This time its worse, I took too many AD's last night, but was sick and just feel shakey today, and now all I can think about is .. enough, no more, the energy just isnt there, I know to hurt myself will hurt others, as I lived through my husbands suicide but i feel like i have reached the point of no return
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Feeling hopeless
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AliceInWonderland · 03/07/2005 18:35
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