When I tell the GP this what will happen?

[ScaredyMac]

I have very bad anxiety, particularly relating to my children.

I hate them being a way from me but force myself to allow them to stay at my mums, but I will spend the whole night worrying there will be a fire or one will wander out of the house and cannot relax.

A few times the older one 5, has gone missing, he has always been hiding in the house but I freak out so bad as I think he has been taken.

When I collect him from school I panic if I cannot see him.

The other day he was not visable at all in the crowd in the classroom, looking back he was probably in the loo, but I had a quick look and wasn't there.

My heart started thumping, my hands started to shake, my chest tightened and I had to walk to the back of the playground as I could not bare the fact I couldn't find him/see him.

All sorts was running through my mind, I was thingking 'his teahcer will open the door, her face will drop and she will realise DS has been missing for hours'

I could see myself screaming in my mind.

I know I sound crazy, I know I do.

Its not rational

but i have such a huge HUGE fear of losing one of my kids.

It keeps me up at night, the thoguht that one day they may not be here.

Its too much for me.

[ScaredyMac]

Have to pop out but will post later if any replies.

[weegiemum]

You should tell someone about this. You doctor should be able to refer you for counselling or CBT or something to help with your anxiety - though there can be a very long wait on the NHS.

We all have a fear of losing our kids I think, but poor you to have it controlling your life so much just now.

I hope you get the help you need!

[LynetteScavo]

Oh bless!

I think all mums experience this, but on a much lesser scale.

ARe you anxious about other things also...I mean wre you anxious before you had DC.s?

The two things the GP could do is refer you for councilling, and/or offer you medication to supress the anxiety.

You don't sound crazy at all, btw. I think your mind is prepareing you for the worst, just incase.

[flakecake]

Hi love,

I agree with the other posters...I would say you need some therapy. You know, you need to figure what triggered this negative thinking in the first place.

Bad things happen to good people, this is life, we can't run from it, just deal with it the best we can. Remember we can only cross our bridges when we get to them, right? So try not to tourture yourself for an event that has not even happened.

[ScardyMac]

Hiya,

Thanks for the replies.

I have always been a shy withdrawn person but the anxiety has grown since hhaving my children. I'm catious about most things, won't go out alone when dark, very wary of strangers and so on.

I go in their rooms at night to check they are still there

[LynetteScavo]

So do I, ScardyMac...Have been when DS2 has snuggled down under his duvet and teddies on the top bunk, and I couldn't find him.

DH knew he was there and found my alarm very funny.

I also still check they are breathing sometimes.

I also paly out senarios in my head of them dying , and imagine the who funeral and how we will all cope afterwards. Then like a fool I start crying. Like I said earlier, I think it's just my brains way of preparing for the worst, just incase.

I consider myself to be notally normal, BTW!

If your thoughts are stopping you sleeping, though, do go to se yur GP.

Oh, and I insited my mum fit an extra lock to her front door, and smoke alarms before I let DS sleep at her house.