I am 33 wks pg. I have been up and down. I have had housing issues, in that an extension went wrong and has been stressful.
I am having a boy, bit disappointed. Don't know why. I had no desire specifically for a girl. Thinking about it, I realise it is because I think I will miss my DD being my only one. She is 3. And she is great. And I love her so much.
Her life has been turned upside down with all this stuff going on. Most of which started so we could have another baby. And now, i guess. Its all gone wrong.
DH and I argue all the time. He is quite grumpy and angry all the time. Mostly due to me being sick this pregnancy, and down and moody and he is fed up. I cannot shake this feeling that things will never be right again. I have posted before, this is all rambly as its all thoughts really.
I am trying to get excited about the baby. I have bought some things, but then I think about what it will mean. Sleepless nights, crying baby, toddler to contend with, no money.
My DH is not working. He is not showing much signs really of wanting to work. its a long story. He is applying for work, but heart really not in it.
And I am worried about money. I am worried about how this baby will impact on our lives. I cannot get excited.
And, I need to say this out loud - I don't know if I want this. It is not how I planned it. I just want it to be us three. I cannot remember what it is I had wanted from having another baby. It does not seem that great now.
I know this will pass. I cannot talk to anyone else about it. Everyone thinks everything is rosy. And it is not.
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I am not sure I can do this.
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EnjoyingtheMoment · 29/09/2009 20:42
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