so proud of myself today!

[glkens89]

Hi
I lurk these boards regularly looking for advice as I can never really think what to say myself. Basically, I am so anxious about everything.

I always think people don't like me, analyse everything everyone does, analyse every conversation I have and then worry about things I've said and how they could have been taken wrongly, to the point where I would rather just stay in my house and not answer phone etc in case I sound silly or say the wrong thing!

Well I feel sorry for my kids now as I really desperately want their friends round but can't ask their parents.

I also worry that people will think my house is a tip even though I know really it's not that bad. And then I worry they will be bored and have nothing to do, or we won't have the food they like etc. I drive myself crazy!

I know things have to change so this week I plucked up the courage to ask a few of DS's friends parents if I could collect their children on the way to the park and let them have a run around and then bring them back. I took a picnic and we had a fabulous time.
AND I had lovely chats with the parents when I dropped their children off.

So, then I text a few of DD1's friends parents and asked them to come to a tea party at my house today. with their mums! I have to admit I have spent the week terrified about this, and nearly faked illness! And last night I hardly slept, as wanted to keep checking everything was clean and tidy. And today I had to go to the shop to get every type of drink, food, treat etc I could think of so that everyone had something! And I made DD1 get lots of toy ready so no-one would be bored! But it all went lovely and we have made plans for a trip to the sealife centre next week.

But now I am sitting here analysing the whole day and hoping I said the right things and am already worrying about next weeks trip. But at least I have made a step in the right direction!

[Dazmum]

You sound like you have had a brilliant time and have made not just a step but a huge leap in the right direction, and you are also right to be very, very proud of yourself! The more you do, the less you will worry about it. Keep going!

[BooBooChicken]

well done you!

next time will be easier because you've already done the hard bit of getting the ball rolling.

[moondog]

Good on you.
Action is always the best way out of dark places.
Bet people were delighted with your invites. I would have been!

[cocolepew]

Good for you! Don't sit analysing your day, you're all gong out again so it was a success.

[chimchar]

fab! great job. be proud, and rightly so!

[duchesse]

Well done! The more you do it the less anxious you will feel.

[bluejeans]

Well done! Don't over think things afrer the event if they went well!(although I do this too!)

Have you heard of Imposter Syndrome?

[glkens89]

Thank you for all your lovely comments.

Bluejeans - no I hadn't heard of that, but it does sound very familiar1