I really need to unload. Lately it seems that I do everything wrong, or forget what I need to do, or cock things up. I have depression, so life feels like wading through treacle, and I struggle to cope with the basics of daily living - today I didn't manage to have a shower, and dh is currently cooking supper, because I couldn't face it.
I'm on citalopram 40mg, and I have made an appointment with the doctor later on this week to discuss if I need to increase this - but that feels like a failure too. I am waiting for a place in a psychotherapy group, but there's no sign of when that's going to happen - oh, and I've lost the card with my next appointment with the psychotherapist (quick appointments to check up on me and reassure me I am still on the group waiting list), so that's another thing I've cocked up, and ringing the hospital to check when it is, is another thing I will probably forget to do.
I am just so tired and so disheartened, and I am desperate for enough sleep to make it all go away. I don't think I am suicidal, but I am not that keen on my life at the moment.
Sorry to be such a wet nelly.
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I want to go to sleep and not wake up.
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Stayingsunnygirl · 18/08/2009 20:00
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