Whoops, I meant let's not worry 'about' others for now!

<<Big hug and cuddles for you>>

I'm glad you've written why you think you are a coward because most sensitive people are too if it is a way to recoil/run away from pain and suffering.

So cheers to cowards! It just means you are sensitive and a decent, loving person.

We have no way of knowing how others would cope with your deal of the cards in life, so let's not worry others for now because the person who is important is you, no one else.

So please, no comparing how others would manage unless there is a strategy of coping you would like to try that you have seen others use.

I'm so sorry you are crying so much but you are not alone anymore, so don't feel you are alone. Just make sure you have enough drink so that you don't get dehydrated.

As for feeling dizzy, please make sure you have enough iron in your diet because a lack of iron can make you feel horrendous. Could you eat a boiled egg daily and also a banana?

I for some reason feel more energetic when I have those so I want to share them with you! <<eating egg and soldiers together>>

I have a tip to share with you on bulimia which I heard on radio 1, an old dj said he wanted to eat and eat but took a tip from the Wine tasters who are able to get the pleasure from tasting many wines because they don't swallow any of it.

To get better emotionally and physically you need to be kinder to yourself from now on, as all the bad things are overwhelming your head and body. Can you identify these bad things? Possibly write them down?

We need to be clear who these 'enemies/viruses/bacteria' are because they are causing you a lot of distress. We need to identify them with an aim to isolate them and eventually zap them for good!

Thank you elderflower and SB.

I am a coward because a proper person would deal with the situation.

I think one of the scariest things is thinking that I am coping, but as soon as I am alone, like if I get into the car to drive somewhere, the tears just start and it feels as if my heart is breaking.
If I am so loosely held together, it is only a matter of time before I break down altogether.

I am dizzy with tiredness again but I can't lie down because I can't stand any more crying.

Hello C (not going to call you your name as you are not, you are special (at least) to your dc, your best friend and me!)

I hope the PacMan managed to gobble up some nasty feelings and you slept well.

You are not a coward, if by that you mean you haven't escaped your negative influence then all is certainly not lost.

But you do need strategies to cope, and by reading your posts it seems as if you have a sense of humour, so that is the start of your road to better days.

You certainly need to acknowledge all that you don't like about your current situation. Then we can evolve methods to cope with them. Then hopefully, when you are stronger, to confront them head on and not let them ruin things for you.

You are too special for that. Just to let you know I'm going to be here for you everyday from now on, it might be intermittent but I will be here. (if by any chance the computer has a problem be sure I will come back). In the meanwhile, let me know about some of the little things that could help you become happier.

this, I sorry to read THIS. grr

I think, when you are struggling so much, the only thing you can do is get through each day, sometimes only hour by hour.

If you were ready to try ADs, there are some that have fairly low risks in case of OD and a dr can prescribe them a month, even a week at a time if you are worried about what you might do. But, in the meantime, you can email the Samaritans, text your friend and post on here. But remember not to be too hard on yourself. You have a lot to cope with and I know the people you are with aren't necessarily the most supportive.

Oh Crap, i'm so sorry to read thing

Thank you for last night elderflowercordial, you helped a lot xx

Thank you.

Wish I wasn't a coward.

Thank you so much for talking to me.
I am going to lie diwn because I am ceasungg to fucntion,,

Sometimes when you feel total seething rage at a person for what they've done or not done, it is better for your own mental health to imagine they are mentally disabled and therefore they really cannot help the way they are behaving and so replace the anger with pity.

If you can feel pity for them you are on a positive way forward. If you have had a really hard time with someone and your own mental health is threatened, it's time to recognise that you do not have mental health training to deal with their disablement and so you are better off not being in their environment, as it is truly toxic, especially for dc.

A person, yes. The father of my children.