I am totally struggling today. Will someone just chit chat to me please.

[MuffinBaker]

Would be hugely appreciated.

[cyteen]

What's up MB? Or if you don't want to say, tell me what the weather's like with you It's almost sunny here but we have lost the keys to the back door so I can't hang my nappies out on the line

[MuffinBaker]

I miss having nappies to hang on the line. DH insisted DS went into pull ups to stop the dirty morning nappies. It worked too.

Just feeling very very low and a lot scared tbh.

[RoseOfTheOrient]

Has been pouring with rain ALL DAY where I am...clothes are hanging out all over the flat...
Hope you are OK, Muffin

[Comewhinewithme]

Hi MB . What's up ?

weather crap here and I am waiting for my late tesco delivery .

[RoseOfTheOrient]

[Curiousmama]

Hi MB weather's iffy here but am still hanging out my washing (sorry cyteen not rubbing your nose in in )

[Curiousmama]

why are you scared?

[pooter]

well i have just pee'd off my nice neighbour by having abonfire (been waiting for weeks for dh to help) as i didnt check with her, and she had washing out feeling v guilty. hope you are ok x

[Comewhinewithme]

Well we are all here just keep posting .

[littlelamb]

There's lots of people here to talk to And I'm not even dressed, and have no intention whatsoever of doing so My ds is the amazing non-sleeping baby and I am dead on my feet

[MuffinBaker]

I can't tell you.

Your kindness has made me cry.

I am scared because I want to do something stupid.

[Comewhinewithme]

Are you on your own in the house MB ?

[MuffinBaker]

I'm in bed and DH is clearing up downstairs.
Dcs at PIL.

[Comewhinewithme]

When you say something stupid you don't mean hurt yourself do you ?

Does DH know how low you feel right now ?

[MuffinBaker]

yes

i went to him, he said "what?" in the way he does when he thinks it is only one thing, i snapped and cried at him and haven't seem him since. He is getting on with the jobs as i have done very little for the last couple of days with being ill.

[Comewhinewithme]

Mb you sound so sad .

You know you can't do anything to hurt yourself don't you things must seem really shit for you now to feel like this but they won't always .

[MuffinBaker]

i am so sad

i have so had enough

i want out

[Comewhinewithme]

Can you try and tell us what is bothering you the most and we can try and help you work through it ?

[MuffinBaker]

thank you but i can't

there is no answer

[LadyOfWaffle]

Hey MB... do you wanna say more how you're feeling? x

[LadyOfWaffle]

Do you feel stressed? Depressed? Anxious...?

[MuffinBaker]

i am in pain, physical and emotional
keep crying
tired
sick
lonely
want to die

[MuffinBaker]

all of yours low.

[LadyOfWaffle]

Do you suffer from depression? Are you on medication? Is the physical pain...er... psychosymptamatic (?? ) or is something else wrong? Does DH know how you feel?

[Comewhinewithme]

Ok no worries .

Are your dc staying with pil for weekend or home tonight my parents have just taken ds out for day.