What should i do? - cant go on like this - long ramble

[mizz]

I suffer with very bad anxiety and depression, i was on seroxat for a while but stoopped so we could TTC - not pregnant yet.

I now feel really low and awfull again, im so anxiouse all the time, my hands sweat when i drive and i can never go far. I cannot stand my inlaws, my FIL looks at my chest and it makes me feel really uncomfortable, so i hate spending time with them, i wish they would just go away. I dont trust him near my DD incase he abuses her in some way, so i have to be there all the time, just in case., he gives me the creeps. His not given my any reason to think this so why do i keep thinking it?

These feeling went away when i was on the meds, so is it just my depression returning? I have to check all the doors about 5 times before i go to bed a night incase someone snatched LO in the night. I cant talk to my OH as he just wouldnt understand at all.When i close my eyes and try to sleep i keep picturing us have a car crash

Id love to go back on meds but i just cant stand the thought of the baby been put in danger, been deformed or withdrawing from the meds when born. I would feel really selfish and awfull, {i dont think others who do are - its just me} yet i can stand the thought of been like this month in month out.

So low at the mo, ive never been this bad.

Help please, what to do?

[Ledodgy]

Ask to be referred by your GP or HV for Congniative behavioural therapy. It really works.

[idontlikethisperson]

Hi Mizz

Hope on over to the "I think I have pure OCD" thread.

There are plenty of us there who suffer anxiety and irrational thoughts.

When I am particularly stressed I get very very worried about lots of irrational things, even though they aren't going to happen - but in my head they could do.....

Perhaps counselling would help you?

Also, another thing which has helped me a bit is to avoid caffeine in all forms, tea, coffee, chocolate . It seems to flood my brain with anxiety. Also high sugar content as well....just a thought. Won't get rid of all your symptoms but may contribute a bit to them.

[idontlikethisperson]

p.s. btw I'm not implying that caffeine is the cause of all your problems, it wasn't for me, but it doesn't help....

[LadyTopaz]

Try St Johns Wort (im hoping too) for a natural alternative. Also lavender esssential oil on a hanky is relaxing..

[LadyTopaz]

Ps. Avoid Seroxat at all cost esp if TTC