Probably just need to have a good moan but....

[alicecrail]

I feel a bit of a phony, attention seeker, posting on here, but i am struggling a bit at the moment. Nothing in particular, and i'm sure its just down to the fact the weather's crap or something. I'm finding it difficult to get motivated to do anything at the moment, the housework, my horses, even playing with my dd, and end up just doing the absolute bare minimum. I've started to feel quite teary and angry over really tiny things and feel like i need to smash things. I used to cut myself as a teenager and i really do not want to go there again. i have also taken an overdose in the past too. Although i am not feeling suicidal now, it is more like trying to keep my head above water (if that makes sense). I find it very difficult to talk to anyone about it because everyone thinks i'm a happy, bubbly person and they would think i am just having a bad day. My dh knows what i'm like but i really don't want to worry him especially as he is on call this weekend and he would be worried about leaving me.
I am not going to harm myself, i am just struggling and would be grateful if any of you had any tips or advice on how to cope. thanks x

[diatribe]

hello no one seems to be here at the mo but i saw your thread and you sound fed up. honestly i think its the time of year too cos iv had a few crap days recently we need sun and warmth. dont be hard on yourself. dont kno about you but his has beena very long week wot with blooming snow kids off. tv overload etc etc. usually it helps to talk and have a natter ive managed to kill about three threads today. done nothing remotely constructive . just thought id say hi

[Seeline]

Sorry you're feeling so down. I've really no experience in these things so feel reluctant to offer advice as such. The weather is getting most people down at the moment so don't feel alone there! As for doing the bare minimum, I wouldn't fuss. See if you can work out what REALLY needs doing and focus on that - don't worry about anything else, it can be sorted when you're feeling stronger. Also try and work out if there is anything needing doing that you enjoy, or would make you feel better if it's out of the way. Concentrating on individual projects, rather than worrying about the bigger picture may help. Hope you are feeling more yourself soon.

[alicecrail]

Haha, thank you, its much appreciated. I honestly feel better already! I just find it hard to moan to my friends when i'm normally the one that they moan to. I'm the practical one, but its amazing how easy it is to become someone else on the outside isn't it.

[diatribe]

kno wot u mean i do get alot of people telling me their woes but i tend to keep mine bottled up or just save them for poor old dh. your certainly not alone i really hope you begin to feel better and at least its friday.can u invite some folks around and have a good natter?

[alicecrail]

I think i will have a nice soak in the bath with a book and then have a yummy dinner, it can't hurt can it? I think the worst of it is that when i feel slightly normal again i think "oh god i've totally over reacted again" and feel like a total eejit! But thank you for your help. I'm just so worried it will slide like it has in the past but i suppose because i can recognise it early enough its unlikely to.