Feel so low at the moment.

[bandgeek]

I have been on anti-d's on and off all year, and thought I was getting better but the past few weeks I have felt so utterly low. This has been made much worse the past few days by the fact DS (3) hair has been falling out.

I feel such a shite mum. When I am low I am not very nice to be around and I'm not always the best mum I can be, so now I'm worried I'm to blame for this. I've hardly been able to look at him the past couple of days - what can that be doing to him??!! I'm such a terrible person

I sometimes think everyone would be better off without me. I wouldn't do anything stupid the urge just to runaway and hide is overwhelming sometimes

[resolutions]

you have not caused ds hair to fall out .
Ring g.p.in morning to make appt for ds and discuss his hair problem.
Ask someone for support to tide you over thistime of feeling low,dp,parents,friend.
Ifyou have noone ask g.p. tomorrow for homestart information and referral or you can refer yourself.
remember a problem shared is a problem halved.
You're his mum and you don't have to be perfect.
You sound anxious and depressed maybe gp could check your meds.
Keep posting;post tomorrow to say if rung gp.
His hair is nothing to do with you I'm sure xx

[maidenvoyage]

hi ya, first of if you were a shite mum then you would not be worrying about your son believe me. Secondly the best thing I could add to this other than go to your gp which is a good idea is that there are so many people including me that you can chat to and sound of to. I personally would never repeat to anyone what is said on here and because am going through some tough times myself would love to help someone else through thiers. There is life out there when and if you want it. I dont know your personal circumstances but feel the urge to run away and hide many a day and sometimes have nearly done it. The only thing that has kept me here is bringing up the kids and thinking that in years to come they will look back on thier childhood and think "mum did her best through good and bad" and there has been many a bad but you are his mother and you are a good one that is why you are asking for help.... x x x x x

[bandgeek]

thank you for your kind words, I'm sitting here crying now . I will phone the gp in the morning, not entirely hopeful about getting an appointment for the two of us at this time of year though

DH and I split up last year, although we are still quite close and talk every day. I'm close to my mum too, but feel I am being such a burden. I think this time of year always makes me feel worse. I'm not currently taking any meds but I'm thinking I should be again. I hate feeling like this. I just want to be the best mum I can but feel like I'm slowly sinking

[resolutions]

appt doesn't have to be today just get next available one.
how you today bandgeek?
you're not a burden its right to need help and support for you and your dcs
hope you feeling betterxx

[bigbaubleeyes]

Hi bandgeek

You are definately NOT terrible person - this is what this illness tricks sufferers into thinking. You are aware of your feelings and have sought help already by coming on here and ringing GP - rational things to do.

My GP wanted me to medicate recently but I refused and tried self help things - there is a thread somewhere on here i'll try to find it. It worked for me, some of it may help you too. I just concentrated on doing the basics getting up and dressed and meals for me and my DS3. I wrote down everything I did so i could see what I achieved no matter how small (to stop me feeling lazy and useless)

HTH - you are not alone