I have been on the same antidepressant for over 5 years. I have a 2 year old DD, work full time, and am a single mum. The past year or so have seen me getting much stronger, using some add in mood stabilisers and antipsychotics (my diagnosis is bipolar) as needed under the supervision of a brilliant consultant psychiatrist. Then she went off sick in August and the first locum was pretty good, let me stop the lithium as it made me feel terrible and got me some community support whilst I did it.
The past two months I feel like everything I have worked so hard to achieve is falling to shreds. A new locum stopped my antidepressants, saying that me doing well was proof I didn't need them
Each dose reduction has been grim, with vertigo/nausea and dizzyness but I have kept working, coped with my DD, etc. I am now down to the lowest possible dose from being on the highest. DD and I have had a vomiting virus since the weekend, I am totally isolated because most of my friends work in healthcare so can't risk them catching it too, my mum wants to help but is having palliative chemotherapy so I can't even see her at the moment. I am weepy all the time. I can't imagine feeling able to cope at work. I am barely keeping up with washing all the sick covered clothes and bedding and the nappies. I feel like everything I fought for has dissolved to nothing. My lovely DD is asking for Daddy loads, which I usually cope with but it suddenly feels like maybe DD should be with Daddy, since Mummy is so hopeless.
I think I might go and see my GP tomorrow just to see if I have any options here... I don't feel like I do. But then, although DD and I haven't vomited in about 12 hours, should we be 48 hours clear before sitting in a doctors waiting room?
Sorry it's so long, thank you if you got this far.
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Since this ****** locum psychiatrist stopped all my drugs I feel like I am losing the plot...
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notevenamousie · 11/12/2008 14:39
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