Must have phoned them about 4 times but each time they answered I just couldnt talk to them it was too painful. I have sunk into depression again and am feeling so low I want to be happy again I want to be a better parent I want to want to live again but each day its getting worse I just want out - I am going to see GP on Friday expect he will diagnose anti depressants (had them in the past) I need to talk to sometone I dont have anyone in RL and cant seem to summon up the courage to even talk to the samaritans - I need to post to get out how I am feeling - no one around me seems to even know how much pain I'm in they all see me getting up every day going to work dealing with teh children no one sees past that - my son does sometimes I think but he is only 10 I dont want to burden him with all the crap I am feeling - I just want to feel something again I look at my kids and all they do is irritate me that dont fill me with joy and I feel bad about that I went to see a friend yesterday who usually really cheers me up and I came away from there feeling depressed - I hate my life right now and I know that I would never end it or anything I couldnt bear to do that to my children but sometimes I do so wish I would just fall asleep and not wake up - my children's father and I are not really a couple anymore kinda of like friends but not frineds ie. I cant confide in him how I am feeling he doesnt notice he doesnt support me I have no one close I feel so sad today so sorry for myself - OK thats it my rant is over
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Called the Samaritans last night but. couldnt talk....
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