I think i have finally reached the end of my tether.I am having real problems sleeping and the following day I am just useless. Dh and I have finally run out of money for doing IVF tratment which we have been persuing for 5 years. i am facing the reality of never having children and therefore am at a loss as to what to do next. I had to give up my job( 5 years ago) and have been out of the employment loop for so long I have no idea where to start.Don;t even know if I can face working again. I have recently realised that all I realy wanted to do in life was to have kids and now there is this enormous black hole where my dream used to be.I feel so devestated Dh will not talk about anything and i feel so abandoned. he has thrown himself into his job as a way of paying back the money we owe( doing loads of overtime). I feel so much guilt and just want to run away as the atmosphere at home is terrible.I just don't know what to do next. Our whole marriage has been about trying for children and there is so much pain associated with it. ( IVF is a vile experience and despite all efforts to keep calm and collected I feel violated and furious at the unfairness of it all) Life just seems so empty.
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