I've got a doctors appointment this afternoon and plan to try and get signe doff work. Feeling like I'm cheating the system somehow and should just pull myself together.
Had a shitty 12 months and can't do it any more, dad diagnosed with terminal cancer last year, had to bring wedding forward 18 months to May so he could be there, dad died four days after the wedding. Hadn't even got use to being a wife before I had to go straight into organising the funeral and dealing with probate etc. (mum fell apart).
I work in a stresseful environment, suffering with severe staffing shortages, people off sick, vacant posts. Had endless conversation with my boss and tried to find ways to deal with the situation, he's tried to help but seems to be burying his head in the sand and hoping everything will return to normal.
Am crying all the time, can't sleep, snapping at colleagues and having nightmares about dad dying - was with him for last hour, he fought and it was horrible to watch.
Can't get more than a week off work but that won't make any difference as work will just build up.
Feel like fraud as dealing okay with rest of life, going weightwatchers and loosing weight, still doing hobbies and going out with DH but work just sends me over the edge - would be fine if I could just go in a do stuff but my job is all about dealing with otehr peoples problems and can't cope.
Very long ramble - guess I just someone to tell me that it's not cheating to admit defeat.
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Helga80 · 10/09/2008 08:54
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