No reason to be depressed but am, cant stop feeling dissatisfied

[summer01]

I never used to be a depressed person, infact I used to have a very positive optimistic outlook on life. Even since giving birth this has changed, dont think I'm suffering from postnatal depression (it was 3 years ago) but issues surrounding the birth (it was horrendos) have left me feeling fed up and I've developed a victim mentality "why do things always go wrong for me" type approach. My life is OK, I have a loving husband, lovely daughter, only work 3 days a week and yet am constantly dissatisfied and anxious. I worry about things that havent even happened yet. I've even started worrying about whether to get pregnant again to the extent I wake up every morning in a cold sweat. Maybe I need to seek professional help but not sure how to approach it, just going in and saying I'm depressed wont help will it? Or maybe they'll just stick me on anti depressants which I'm reluctant to try, guess I'm worried I'll think I'm a failure for needing help...

[forevercleaning]

Sorry you are feeling like this. have you tried st johns wort? Herbal anti depressant. Check the contra indications though as certain medications etc should not be used at the same time. I use it throughout the winter months and swear by it.

[summer01]

No havent tried, maybe should, has to be worth a go. Sick of feeling like this! Thanks for replying.

[forevercleaning]

may be worth mentioning it to a gp though as post natal dep can manifest itself quite a while after the birth. You can say you are reluctant to try any medication, and he may be able to advise you of someone who you could talk things through with regarding the traumatic birth of your dd.

[LovelyDear]

I could have written your post when my ds was 3. I went to the gp who got me counselling and it certainly helped me past that stage. I don't think your feelings are at all unusual and the gp should be understanding. I absolutely empathise with the not wanting to feel a failure. But i'm sure that you can be helped to feel much better, and it's really really worth a shot. good luck.