I have a clingy an almost 8 m old ds, a big disturbing family problem recently, plenty of money worries usually, a filthy horrible house and no motivation to do ANYTHING.
My ds is a bright, happy little boy who craves stimulation and wants me in the same room as him all the time, screams if I leave the room the majority of the time. He doesn't nap much during the day.
The housework has piled up so badly there's laundry and washing up everywhere, all baby's clothes need sorting as he's too big for most of them. Bills need paying, we do actually have the money for once but I need to go put it in the bank, which would mean leaving the house and I can't face it. We also need food shopping and about to run out of nappies, milk, wipes etc
I do part time work from home and I havemn't done any for about a week but I was supposed to start again properly as of yesterday and I did nothing. Part of the job involves sales calls, and I can't bring myself to do it. Baby won't sleep to let me do it, and I'm not in the right frame of mind to sell things. My dp will be very angry if I "lose" this job.
Dp doesn't help out much, if at all, in the house. He doesn't cook, doesn't clean off his own back- occasionally he will put washing on. The bins are overflowing. If I don't do the housework it just doesn't get done at all. I'm so depressed by it all, I can't face it. I'm sitting here in the same clothes I woke up in, haven't even brushed my teeth. All I've done today is feed and change ds, and made myself a coffee.
I never get any time off from ds at all, dp never hears him in the night or helps out unless nagged. I don't do much more than the basics with ds at the moment and I know he's so bored but I just want to cry. I really just want to sleep, and sleep, and sleep. Or lie very still and quiet on my own. I'm sick of having responsibilities, I need to recharge, but there's just no chance as dp works so he gets to watch tv and sit about when he gets home and on weekends. The only time I tidy up recently is half an hour before dp gets home as I'm ashamed of what he'll say.
I've just been prescribed citalopram for my anxiety etc. I haven't told the doctor I can't do anything as I'm so embarassed and scared I'll be put on some kind of watch list. Wtf is wrong with me? I feel so sorry for my baby. This isn't what I want for him at all but I feel so tired and numb I can't cope with anything except caring for him.
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I don't want to do ANYTHing apart from sleep, or lie down quietly- so embarassed that I'm so useless.
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fedup1981 · 26/03/2008 13:48
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