Im finding things just way too much at the moment. No matter what i seem to say to people noone seems to be listening and tonight had i had them to hand, i could have quite happily drunk a bottle of vodka and swallowed a whole load of pills.
Have felt this way for a while now and the fact that im 30 weeks pg and have a 9month old ds kept me going because they need me, but i cant do it anymore and no1 will listen. Im literally craking up under the strain of everything.
ex has a new gf, i literally begged him to come over and just keep me company this evening and he did say he would. cooked him dinner only to get a txt to say he was going to see his barbie doll and would be over another evening.
I cant keep up with all my university work and dont feel I can ask for anymore help or extensions. Had a lot of exceptiong last year as i was ill with glandular fever and pg.
Im sick of being alone and having to cope with everything. I never get a moments peace. ds wont sleep and i just cant go on anymore. My flat still has so much decorating that needs to be completed before baby arrives and I have just recieved my bank statement which highlighted how skint i am. nothing will go right. trying to deal with my own problems but having to support my mum who has cancer. I know everyone has problems but i just dont know where to turn. I have told people how miserable i am but no1 seems to recognise that im being serious. im falling appart and feel like a total failiur. cant stop crying and the worst thing is that i think im making my beautiful son, (the only good thing i have in my life) miserable.
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charlotte121 · 18/03/2008 22:29
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