i'm feeling no joy

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

that's it really - i don't feel suicidal or anything extreme - but i just feel like i can't be bothered like there's no spark and no joy - i feel on the verge of tears a lot of the time too and lately i've felt like just walking out the door but i've got nowhere to go. I haven't told anyone in real life how i feel - i always put on a normal/happy face but inside i feel unsatisfied with my life.
So am i depressed or do i need to give myself a kick up the arse?

[avenanap]

Sound a bit depressed. No joy, nothing to look forward to You don't need a kick up the bum, it's painful and dosn't work. How long have you been feeling this way?

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

quite a long time really - but it makes no sense - i have a great dp, two lovely kids , nice house , stable finances

[avenanap]

It makes no difference, the brain's a tricky thing, anyone can be depressed. Do you have any hobbies or friends that you spend time with?

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

i just can't seem to get up any enthusiasm for anything - and will stay on the internet for hours at night rather than spend time with "real" people

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

i have probably got more friends on here than in r/l now - i just feel i can be myself online i don't have to put on a "happy face"

[WaynettaSlob]

Vintageviolet - make an appt with your GPL. I was in a similar situatiopn about 18 months ago - no particularly thing to be 'down' about, but felt like bursting into tears a lot and was hardly ever happy.

Eventually plucked up the courage to see my GP (with a little help from some lovely MNers). Went on ADs for a small while, had some counselling sessions and have to day it made a world of difference.

Phone the GP now......

[avenanap]

That could be part of the problem. We are mostly faceless and we have no idea who most of the others are. It can be easy to let it all out because it's not personal. You don't have anything to look forward to. I often feel like this, a bit lost. Sometimes like I've jut been placed here and don't fit in. Are there no mn'ers where you live so that you can meet up once a week for a coffee and a chat? What about doing a course at a college or uni? something to get you out of the house, something to look forward to, even if it's just for a couple of hours?

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

glad you are feeling better waynetta

avenanap - you're probably right i should do something for me - i guess it's very easier to get lost in work and parenthood and lose yourself along the way [oh dear that sounded a bit deep and hippy!]

think i need to organise a night out with DP and just get very drunk, have a good cry and hope to get back on an even keel and if that doesn't do the trick maybe i'll take waynetta's advice.

[vInTaGeVioLeT]

just had a huge row with dd and said she was grounded - so pissed off with her stroppiness - i reversed the decision as i felt i'd gone to far - but now she's really upset that i flipped and i just feel numb.

[Rosylily]

sounds like you need some affection perhaps? Its okay to have sad days i think but if the days keep being sad days i would definately try to change that. Gp, excercise sometimes does the trick, or a good sleep and square meal? Check your iron etc?