I have turned into the most negative insecure person. Maybe I was always like that I don't know but its just making me so unhappy and, I think, ruining my marriage.
On the surface I seem to have it together but underneath I am a mess. Doing well in my job etc have house, beautiful child, hubby but underneath I am seething with self-loathing. I have not really got any friends in this country and feel lonely even though I am lucky enough to have some family around. But I think I am even driving them crazy, I'm so up or down, never in between, when a mood takes me I can't disguise it and I just feel really really negative about everything, always nagging DH and being unkind, I think everybody hates me all the time, can't stand myself anymore.
And I have no real reason to be like this, my life is good in so many ways.
I just want to be happy and likeable. I haven't felt so awkward and wretched since I was 14, 20 years ago. Thought I left this all behind then...
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Mental health
Any solution short of personality transplant
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feelingabitblue · 07/01/2008 13:04
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