Hiya..I'm so plsed to have found this group.
I am currently on strict bed-rest at home..I'll give you some background.In August 06 we lost our Son(Max) at 24wks,due to weak cervix..After beheavement counselling we decided to try again and I;m now 33weeks preggers..It hasnt been an easy pregnacy,I had a stitch placed to my cervix at 13weeks,then at 18weeks I started to get cervix measurements in London and at 21weeks,they discoverd the cervix was getting short..At 24weeks my cervix got so short I was put in hospital at risk of havin another Prem baby..I was scared beyond belief,given steroid shots like I had with Max..I just kept thinking 'surely God wouldnt allow this to happen again'...Well I was so happy to get to 28wks where I was told I could go home on strict-bedrest..Each day was a pure blessing and I now know that if my baby is born,he will ultimately be O.k..That I am thrilled about.
The thing is over the past week I have been struggerling with awful depression..I feel so isolated and inadequate I could scream..I have only spoke to my Dh about this,he is very supportive.but i just feel so guilty and irritable.Surely I should be over the moon that ive got this far..but I feel scared and the reality of being a Mum has just hit me..I feel ashamed to tell my friends..I am going to make an appointment to see my G.p tomorrow,I have suffered with depression before but am reluctant to take A.D..(I had them about 2years ago)I do have a cousellor,who has been away over Xmas..So I have missed that.I am just not sure if the feelings I have are normal,because I'm stuck at home not being able to go to Ante-natal classes,meet pals for a coffee..or I have full blown depession..Maybe one is the sympton of the other.? Sometimes,I get so low in myself..I have such doubts that I feel I will be sectioned and Dh will bring up the baby...How extreme is that..Pehaps I have post traumatic stress disorder,when I was in hospital..I have been so strong through-out this pregnancy..Pehaps it has all hit me now.
Anyone else had similar experieces?
Thanyou for listening..It feels cathertic for me to share my fears.
xx
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Ante-natal depession or circumstance?
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shayda · 30/12/2007 12:22
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