I am scared!!!!!!!!! Ive heard its good to talk. Ive tried im constantly talking. Today i walked out on my son. I actually left! Dont ask me where i was going.I dont even know. All i know is i was cold and tired of him seeing me cry. The saddest part of it was before i vene lfet i looked in my phone book, to cry for help. And NO ONE not one person picked up and not a real friend to even cry to and ask for help. I just wanted my son to escape for a few hours away from the flat and the darkness where facing at the moment. The other day the balifs came, my son started to cry, he was scared they'd break the door down. I mean how useless am i as a mohter my 5yr trying to make things better but he cant, i should be protecting him. Up till last monday i was packing some stuff as we were being evicted. I dont know if im coming or going...no 5yr old has to face what my son faces. We ran out of electric the other day, we had to light up some candles, i tried my best to make him comfortable but i can see the stress in his eyes. I havent even bought him one christmas present. Today i had £7 pounds, and i went to iceland, tears runnin down my cheeks as i bought food for today. In 3 weeks time i face sentencing. I might be serveing time... never been in trouble before i got caught up with bad ppl, to get me and my son out of a financial situation. How can i be strong today when i dont know how to be strong. Ive been sick for so long i dont know anything else. I have mum, and im glad i have a mum but shes not there... like she should. I have no other family that lives in this country. Ive lived a life that could write many books, i just want a better life for my son and I. The tablets do what they can, but on bad days i dont even feel them. Someone in my last reply said im crying for help, and if i recieve help why isnt it working. Well i dont know...
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I NEED A CHANGE... IM GETTING TIRED OF CRYIN N SCREAMIN
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jewel121 · 21/12/2007 20:37
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