Not sure whether I am depressed again or not

[IdrisTheDragon]

Have had depressive tendencies (for want of a better word) for the past 15 years or so. Have had two major depressive episodes and was on sertaline from March 05 until April of this year.

There have been various things during the last year or so which have triggered depressive times, although I felt fine coming off the ADs in April. I felt that I was generally all right, but DH has said that I appear to be putting up a barrier round myself a bit, and also getting very irritable, especially with him.

I don't feel the grey feeling which has indicated depression to me before, but I am very lacking in motivation and having problems going to sleep in the first place.

I am going to see the GP this afternoon and will waffle on in some sort of way. Just feel a bit frustrated to be feeling this way tbh.

This doesn't really need a reply btw, I am just pondering things away to myself .

[jeangenie]

hope the meeting with the GP goes ok and you get a better handle on things soon

I know that lacking motivation feeling VERY well

[jellybelly25]

yeah am getting that dreaded feeling of having to accept i may have pnd again and go waffle on to the dr again and maybr go back on ads again etc etc... am fed up with it too i really have tried not to let it happen but am watching everything slowly unravel and its not good.

how did it go?

[IdrisTheDragon]

I went. I waffled on. I did a diagnostic test thingy.

And now am the proud owner of some ADs. I am glad DH pointed out to me that I was turning into irritable me, but I do rather dislike the depression.

GP is referring me for counselling, as there is CBT at our surgery, which I think would help me.

[Webdiva]

I too feel on the collywobbles again. But well done us (&DPs) for being so alert to it - I'm sure this really helps the extent it takes hold.
Keep going - ads are all part of it, so sure they'll help.

[notolerance]

Me too! Am booked in at 5pm tomorrow evening!Would just so love to lead a normal life xx

[IdrisTheDragon]

I feel a bit as if a load has been lifted (whilst not really feeling it was there) and this is before any pills .

I think I have to accept that I do need to have ADs, generally. Just feel a bit cross I seem to need them, at the same time.

Hope your appointment goes well notolerance (mine was 4:40pm ).

[Webdiva]

Don't feel cross
Be glad for them, they will help relieve your "head" ache
It's not a reflection on you, may be we're just unlucky that our make up or experiences make our trigger points lower - does that make sense?

[IdrisTheDragon]

Thank you everyone who replied - although it's not nice knowing other people understand, it is at the same time .

Am feeling a bit nauseus and spaced out, but not too bad. Shows things are getting into my system I think .

[TimeForMe]

Hi

I just wondered if you have considered the alternative route? After trying AD's but not liking the effect they had on me I researched then started taking St John's wort and a supplement called 5htp. They work brilliantly, I have never looked back! Without the same side effects as the prescribed AD's (although some GP's now prescribe St Johns wort)