The World Just Isn't Enough!

[Edmund37]

Hi, I'm quite new to MN, and just need to let out some frustration. I've got a lovely home, 3 great kids that have never really given me any grief, a DH that loves me and a great family and a few close friends. So why is it I cannot get rid of the feeling of a gaping great void in my life?

I'm a SAHM, and money is tight so it's restricting what I can do, but for as long as I can remember I've always felt that there is just something missing, and I cannot figure out what. I've had short periods of depression in the past, but have always managed to pull myself out of it, but the void is always there, and then the guilt kicks in as I know compared to alot of MNers I really haven't got many worries.

I was just wondering if anyone else has had similar feelings and what they did to 'discover' what they needed to fill the gap!

Sorry to go on, but I've had this feeling for years and years and the need to find fulfilment is getting more and more intense the older I get. Any advice on direction would be great.

[HuwEdwards]

could you try voluntary work?

[Edmund37]

It's an idea, I have a 2 yr DD at home so would have to find someone to mind her, parents live about 30 miles away. I am looking for a job, but no luck so far.

[MissChief]

i know what you mean - I suppose we all want to have had a life well-lived, IFYKWIM? For me that's the feeling that I'm doing something worthwhile - is that your "void"?
Could you do an open university course, help out at yr LO's shcool, pre-school? Just ideas. Not got the answer myself and am currently battling depression (again) so I know it's easy to say, less easy to do!

[Edmund37]

I just feel stuck in a trap. Unfortunately, most things need an initial outlay of money to get started - and I'm not exaggerating when I say we're skint. We're keeping the bills sorted and food on the table but that is it. But, to make things better I know I need to take some action somewhere - and as every mum knows, tying that in with making sure the LOs are taken care off just makes it all even harder.
It just feels better just to have it out in the open. DH doesn't really understand where I'm coming from. If I mention I'm not happy to him he'll immediately take it personally and think he's the problem as he's abit insecure in that way.

[MissChief]

then could helping out at preschool or somthing help? meeting new people, being free, experience which may help you get a jbo in future ??