It feels like im getting dragged in their with him. Hes on self destruct and i cant do any more.............have spent half the night listening to him rant, his answer is to drink and then get really shitty, not violent but just sarcastic and cutting.
God it hurts so much, he is not the person that i loved anymore and its making me cry just to write this. If he walked away today i would be the happiest person around for both me nad the kids. But he is so down, so many things have gone wrong, I am a fighter and he isnt, I deal with things and he doesnt, I have tried all i can to help but he is dragging me down too.
i have our children to look after and he is making our lives a misery, I dont even feel like i would be abandoning him anymore. our kids only get one go at childhood and it is not going to be spent listening to him moaning and criticising. Would it be cruel to say that im sick of him wallowing in self pity??, he is so selfish, we have been through a lot together but i dont think i can take it anymore. He is now upstairs sleeping after spending half the night in an irritating drunken mood, waking me constantly since 3.30am to tell me something else he doesnt like, and how everything is against him including me, Im such a selfish twunt.....He has really hurt me.
I need to stay focussed that I am not the person he says i am...........All i care about (rightly or wrongly) is my children. I really think that i have stopped caring about him..............he has driven all the love out of me.
Please help me focus on what is important, i dont feel like im making sense. Does anyone else ever feel this way, or am i being selfish??. I am sooo tired, he really is taking all my energy and will to keep going from me...XX
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How do you cope when your partner is so down............
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wonkydonkey · 01/06/2007 07:35
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