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Mental health

Please help!!!

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 01:50

I have terrible insomnia and anxiety. have started Citalopram. Just can't sleep. Two lovely boys aged 1 and 3. feel like I am going mad. Please let there be someone out there who answers this thread.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 01:51

Getting just 2 hours sleep a night and sometimes less (tonight being one of them). Can you die from lack of sleep? I so badly want to be the best mum I can and this is just hijacking any chances I have of that.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 01:54

there's noone there. I feel so alone in this.

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Albert · 11/05/2007 01:57

Can't help really but just want you to know you are not alone. Us expat Mums are up and about and having mad conversations on other threads.
Never heard of anyone dying from lack of sleep so that's one thing less on your anxiety list.

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 01:58

HI gremlin,not sure if I can help,did'nt want your thread to go unanswered.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 01:59

Thank you for replying. How the hell am I going to get through tomorrow? Feel constantly sick, anxious and wired. Want this to stop.

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 02:02

Hi gremlin-have you any family you could talk to?

Your children are both very young and I know whe my two were that age it is hard work.

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Albert · 11/05/2007 02:03

What is your diet like? Food and lifestyle have a lot to answer for and are frequently overlooked in these situations.

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 02:05

Albert,that is a good point.

I know I feel really sluggush and down when I have eaten junk and wide awake when I have had too much caffiene,hence me still up this early in the morning.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:10

Have family close by but am not close to them. Big sis has 3 kids (one with SN) and has enough on her plate. Don't get on great with Mum and Dad. Little sis is career girl and doesn't understand why I am ill.

diet is ok. Eat well. exercise too although I am tto tired to do it these days. dead stressful job though.

sitting here crying my eyes out. just want this to stop.

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butterflywings · 11/05/2007 02:13

Awww, gremlin..
Don't know what to say, just ((big hugs)) for you

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fluffskin · 11/05/2007 02:14

Hello gremlin
Are you still there? When I started taking citalopram it made me feel very sick and anxious at first. Once you get over that settling in period the sick feeling should go away. How long have you been taking it? You're not going mad, you just have lots of demands being made on you at the moment. There's a 14 month gap between my two children and I remember feeling just like you. You've done well to ask for help from your GP and you sound like a good, caring mum. Hang on in there, it will get better.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:14

thanks butterflywings. it helps to know people are out there. makes me feel a little less alone.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:16

thanks fluffskin. Cried again when i read your message. I hope to God this eases soon. I just don't know how to keep on going. How long did it take for you to feel better?

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 02:17

Hi gremlin-are you managing on your own with the children and holding down a job?

Both stressful things in themselves .
Have you talked to a health visitor or doctor about how you are feeling?

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:18

Sorry fluffsin just reread your message. have taken it for nearly two weeks. First week 10mg. Since last Friday 20mg.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:20

Docs prescribed AD's sunflowervalley. Am teacher. Just had OFSTED. Have amazing husband to help. Feel so stupid that I have allowed myself to get into this state. There is no reason for it. I have great kids, a great husband, a lovely home.

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fluffskin · 11/05/2007 02:20

I found citalopram wasn't the right ad for me. Were you feeling sick before you started taking it? I couldn't get over the sick feeling and ended up trying something else.

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 02:21

Sorry gremlin,just saw that you have consulted a doctor.

I took anti depressants for awhile and they caused me insomnia .
As fluffskin said it will take awhile to settle down.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:22

wasn'tfeeling sick before I took it. had initial sickness but that's passed. How long is it before AD's make the anxiety subside? The doc says I have been wired up for such a long time that it could take weeks!

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sunflowervalley · 11/05/2007 02:26

gremlin-must go to bed, talk tomorrow

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:28

cheers sfv. Thanks for being there...

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fluffskin · 11/05/2007 02:30

Once I got the right ad I started feeling better after about two weeks. I kept in touch with the GP and we adjusted the dose until I could get through life without it overwhelming me. Felt better slowly at first - less panicky and worried. After we got the right dose there was a big difference. Sounds like your GP is adjusting the dose for you to see if that will help. Keep in touch with him and don't give up, you are doing brilliantly coping with a stressful job and your two young boys. You've just had an OFSTED inspection as well....no wonder you're feeling stressed!

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:33

I know fluffskin. I am a control freak though and hate the4 fact I have no control over this. It's really encouraging to hear that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I just can't wait to reach it. I hate feeling like this and thinking about the impact my illness is having on my kids.

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gremlin · 11/05/2007 02:38

I am going to try to sleep again now. Might be back here soon though... thanks to everyone who responded. Your support means a great deal to me. I don't feel quite so alone anymore.

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fluffskin · 11/05/2007 02:46

Know what you mean, worrying about impact on the kids. Trouble is, worrying about that undermines how you feel about yourself even more doesn't it! I think your children will be fine, mine were. You should start to feel a bit better soon, your GP only upped your dosage on Friday so hopefully it should kick in shortly. If not, go back again. I am actually able to not mind so much when things are out of my control now - never thought that it was possible for me! It makes life so much nicer to live. One of my concerns pre-ad was that I would become some sort of zombie if I took them, but I still feel like myself, only without the panic and pressure. I hope that you will soon feel better Gremlin. I am sending you big hugs.