Having first proper panic attack for 5 years :( anyone up?

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anyone?

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hello,

brief history, had a stressful few months, then about a month ago I tried st johns wort to de-stress, but had to stop taking as a few days in I had dizziness, I have had the same dizziness for a month now, not major dizziness just a feelimg there and if i get up too quick I feel really dizzy etc etc.

Been to doctor, who at first told me to come back in a week if still there, I did then given some pills for a middle ear infection (labarithitious sp?)

5 days into pills and no change, then yesterday afternoon I had a weird sensation in my head just up from the neck and I couldn't shake off the feeling something bad was going to happen to me, I managed to fall asleep at 9.30 only to be woken at 12.30 in a cold sweat.

Now I know stress and anxiety can cause a lot of symptoms, knowing this why am I panicking.

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thanks Califrau, I did look up the symptoms on nhs direct, but thought some of the symotoms didn't quite add up, I get a little confused and forgetful (i get this with anxiety as well) but read that usually labyrinthisis gets better after a few days and the dizzy head is not constant.

My dh gets up to work early, so I will probably watch tell for a few hours till he goes to work as part of the reason I was pankicking was because I didn't want to disturb him.

[bananabump]

Not much too add on the lab, I don't know anything about it I'm afraid, but I have had panic attacks in the past, a few times as a reaction to stress. Once I hallucinated, and was terrified, inconsolable.

You need company and reassurance, is there anything in particular playing on your mind?

Lights on, cup of tea, comedy/light entertainment on the tv, try to normalise yourself by making your surroundings upbeat. This will pass and you will feel better, even though it's horrible now.

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lol jules99

I wish I had read up about st john wort before I took it, but as it was about a month ago I stopped taking it, surely it must be all out of my body, my doctor said that ones pills can trigger labrintitious but she wasn't sure if this is one of them !!!

when I used to get them years ago, it was a normal run of the mill illness like a head ache, but I would think a tumour as depressed, and I pulled a muscle in my chest which I also though was heart failure.

My throat was a little sore yesterday, so probably got a cold or something and connected the 2 thinking the worse

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thanks banabump, they are awful arn't they?

its the total irrational thoughts that go throught my head, even though I know they are irrational I still worry and panic.

Nothing on mind, infact for the few stressful months I had, everything settled down nicely and now this.

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It's good that you know they're irrational though. I'm with you on the hypochondria, that can get so bad when you're panicking.

I know it sounds stupid and cheesy but the samaritans are always great to chat to if you're stuck, you don't have to be suicidal to call them, god knows I've bored the arse off them more than once when I've been upset for whatever reason.

I would just blame it on your st johns wort and try to be reassured that it won't affect you forever. How are you feeling now?

[triplets]

Hi,
I have been on here since 11pm for similar reasons. I often got palpatations or feelings of my heart missing a beat then feel as though I am going to collapse and die. I then feel shaky, scared and dizzy. On top of it I have tinnitus, went to bed at 9.30pm to read, light off at 11pm but the noise in my head combined with still feeling anxious results in me being on here. Need to get to bed, up with my trio at 7am and will feel awful. Poor you too xxx

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its quite bizarre as I did remember panic attacks being quite severe and over with within an hour, this one I think actually started yesterday and never proerly went away.

I do know they are irrational, the trouble is when I am telling myself this theat horrible word BUT comes in play,

I know my head probably is worse because i am stressed, but......................

but the weird thing is, that when it comes to ds or sh being ill, I am perfectly fine, see things for what they are etc etc, its just when i am ill, I see it as doom and gloom.

I was never like it before I had my son.

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poor you as well triplets

Hope your feeling better soon as well

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jules99 sounds awful.

Glad you are managing to deal with it.

I have in the past felt like a panic attack coming, but have always managed to avert it by breathing, its not happening this time.

[bananabump]

how old is your son? you don't think it could be linked in to any form of pnd, do you?

Depression in general can bring on panic attacks, god knows I've suffered from it on and off over the years in its many forms. Perhaps another word with your doctor might help you sort out where these problems are stemming from, AND he can help you sort out your "I know it's probably nothing, BUT..." feelings.

Sorry you feel bad too triplets. Gosh, I can only imagine how hard it must be to feel panicky and horrid and then having to get up and deal with triplets! You must be a supermum. Hope you both feel better soon.

[triplets]

Thanks, the only thing I can console myself with is that this has been going on for about 4 years now and I am still here! Nothing bad has happened. My life has been a roller coaster for the last 13 years. My beautiful only child Matthew aged almsot 15 collapsed and died in my garden with no medical explanation ever found. After two years of hell I started ivf, third attempt I give birth to triplets two months off of my 46th birthday. I am now 55, husband 66 and grumpy and 9 yr old triplets, life is STRESSFUL but I love them!

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Hi, son is 7.

triplets, I am sorry about your son, it must be awful not knowing why

[triplets]

Must go to bed, hope you all get some sleep too, xx

[bananabump]

Wow, what a lot to deal with. IVF is horrendous enough but for that to happen to your son, no wonder you get panic attacks. Some people are so brave.

Yeah it's the ironic thing about panic attacks, the way they subside, life goes on, and you feel silly for acting so irrationally about "nothing", but at the time it's so crippling. All you can do is be kind to yourself and try to get support, preferably not of the "snap out of it" variety.

[triplets]

Thanks, life is pretty tough at times, but we survive. Night night all, xx

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i Know what you mean, I once had a friend (now ex friend) who actually ought me some radox bubble bath and said that might help.

Your right though, I am sure I will look back and think you silly , but now it does seem so real, I just cant shake the feeling that something might actually be wrong this time

night triplets

[triplets]

Just seen your message Jules, thank you, Matthew breaks mt heart, its been 13 years and I dread next year when he will have been gone as long as he was here, I think of all these things when I sit here all alone.

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well i think I will grab the spare duvet and stick on some friends and hopefully doze till i get get back into bed with fear of waking dh

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thanks for evveryone who left messages, although how awful for you as well, re-assuring that I am not alone