I need some sort of therapy. It's taken me a long time to realise it, but there's things going on that I can't cope with any longer.
I had a toxic relationship with my parents, my dad was physically and mentally abusive, and it's confusing me so much that I now have a good relationship with him (I think I do?)
I've come to realise my Mum was horrendous. Making me keep financial secrets from as young as 5, telling me she was jealous that my Dad called me 'darling' and not her, telling me she was jealous of how 'close' me and my dad were (made me think our relationship was completely normal)
Never shielding me during his temper rages, or showing me that they were wrong.
Now I have children, one with SEN, she's forever harping on about how much it upsets HER that DS doesn't greet her. He's autistic. He doesn't greet anyone.
I need to talk, desperately. I can't sleep, my stomach is in constant knots, and I feel like harming myself as a way to cope with the pain inside. Where can I go to talk? I can't afford private therapy, my DH is wonderful and understanding, but I need an outsider to vent at and tell me it's not all in my head.
Last time the GP said they'd refer me to CBT it took over 12 months to even get a letter back, I'm still waiting for an appointment, it could be months.
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Where can I go to talk?
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ChangedUsername123 · 17/01/2017 23:40
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